My life right now!!! Still HURT!!!
Well lets see I have not updated in forever!!! Well not as long as others but it has been a long time for me. I didn't even think people still did LJ's anymore. Well nothing new is going on with me. Still single and hating everyday of it. Still in love with the ones I will never have. People are still gone from my life that no matter what I will never get back. I miss some friends more than they know or will ever know. I use to write about whatever I was dealing with at that time. If it was a rainy day or if I was listening to a great song that reminded me of my life or someone around me. I find it funny how sometimes a song or a movie or a TV show really can make ourlives make sense to us. And we try for years and get nowhere. I am 25 now soon to be 26 and I still have nothing to show for it in my life. My computer crashed on me and i lost everything from my life from the last 3 years. I lost everything like pictures, music, poems just a lot of stuff and it is killing me inside. And I recently deleted my myspace because it was tempting me to be sad, Facebook kind of does to but no where as much. And i recently broke my car. So me and my mom are sharing her car right now which upsets me everyday. I am not living a free life anymore. But i can hide my emotions just fine so i will make it. Anthony's B-day party was last night had a blast before and after not so much in the middle of it. To much drama always, People who live in glass house should not throw stones. And last night that was one of those drama moments. But it doesn't even matter. I am happy for those of you that are truly happy and in love right now but I ask what was wrong with me??? Why did not choose me??? I am not a whore so please don't treat me like I am a one night stand and just be ok with that!!! Sorry!!! Well this is enough for now!! There will be one later!!! PROMISE!!!