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Ok, I have to get this all out. I’m sorry if it clutters up your dash.
My entire life, I have never known my biological father. What I do know of him, isn’t much. When I started asking questions about him when I was younger, my mom told me I had an older sister. That has stuck with me for a long time. In my household, I was the oldest child. I hated it. I always wanted an older sibling. I wanted someone to look up to, instead of being the one that was looked up to.
Any time that I would talk to my mom about trying to find my father, she would seem agitated and always ask me why. I always gave a list of reasons, one being that I wanted to find my sister. The last time that I got passionate about finding him again was right after I moved in with Chris. I’m not going to say he wasn’t supportive, because I know no matter what I would have done he would’ve supported me, but he wasn’t excited about it either. Neither was my mom. This time she actually got mad. So I dropped it. I never actually thought that I WOULD find either of them.
Last night, we were trying to leave my parents house, and my mom says “by the way, I think I might have found your sister on Facebook.”
I was completely surprised. My mom actually messaged her, asking if her father was (insert name) and that she was an old friend trying to contact him. She didn’t mention me at all.
But, she looks just like me! I, of course, had a different dad than my brother and sisters, so I always stood out from them. My father is Italian, so I am as well. I have a darker complexion, dark hair, and dark brown eyes. I have clear skin, I’m short. My brother and sister have light skin, acne problems, and light hair and eyes.
I am 100 percent sure she is my sister. We have the exact same eyes. Color and shape, eyebrows are the same, we part our hair the same way. Her hair is just a little thinner than mine, but I have my thick hair from my mom. We have the same skin tone, and same body type.
What do I do now? If I message her, what do I say? How do you start a conversation like that? My mind has been going non-stop since last night. I can’t stop thinking of all the different possibilities, outcomes, pros, cons, and everything in between.
Worst case scenario, she never responds, and wants nothing to do with me. Which, I wouldn’t necessarily be missing out on something I’ve never had to begin with. Best case scenario, we’re exactly alike, and hit it off really well, and I get the chance to expand my already close family.
At the very least, I have questions that I think I deserve to know the answers to.
What do ya’ll think I should do?