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This is me not doing my research paper...
I would rather be anywhere but here.
Dad is drinking again. I know he is. It's only a matter of time before everything falls apart.
I wanted, for so long, to reach the epitome of apathy. I think I have. I don't feel anything. Emotions just sweep over me. Everything is fleeting. I'm not angry, I'm not depressed, and I'm definately not happy. I wanted so badly to condition myself to avoid emotions all together because being emotional means feeling like shit. I'm not so sure that I want this anymore... and I don't know how to go back..
All I want is to be happy.