How do you flirt?
I have never known how to flirt with a guy. I thought that it comes naturally. Haha, I am so messed up.Anyways. I feel really queasy rite now how will the conversation go between me and david? Ahhh, god hasn't given me enough courage and strength. It was only momentary. Gah, damn. It feels quite frustrating when I am so sure about something one moment and then the nxt moment u dun feel lyk it anymore because of my low self confidence. And this will probably be one of the last chances I would ever get to talk with him haha. (Its not lyk I do it anyway.) Being a girl is quite troublesome for me. Always waiting for a guy to ask me out first. But it is not lyk I can accept it. I would have to go backstreet. Anyways my mum was like, "girl, wait for university ok? There are a lot of guys u can see." So that practically mean, "dun go out anytime earlier then university." But mb it would be true to find a lot more boys in university. But I would be lyk, old? So generally speaking I dun really have self confidence. God. I can't seem to picture somebody coming up to me and asking me to be his gf. I am not a close to a flawless diamond. I know. I am an unpolished stone. No, just a stone. The normal type u can find anywhere. Soo, I tink I might not be able to speak to david. What I ask might sound corny dammit. Haha. Well I will see tomorrow. If I dun my bro will probably scold me for not being confident. Oh well, I would prefer to be with someone who is already close to me. Would save me a lot trouble. It is not lyk noe a boy that is close to me but not related to me anyway. God my love life is a disaster and shit. Who the heck says the scapegoat has a lot of luck? Haha. But I have learned how to live with it. God I tink I am gonna be single for the rest of my life. Might as well be a nun at a monastery or at a catholic church. At least there is a valuable reason why would I be single. But anyways, why would an atheist at heart become a nun of strong belief. Its plain shit.