pipped at the post
My manager at work left last month and yesterday I had an interview for his job. I didn't get it, but have been told I was one of only two appointable candidates (out of seven) and only just missed out to the other person, whoever they are. We don't know who got it yet, but it's looking like one of the external candidates, who reputedly wore a pink tie. (I am provisionally viewing the pink tie as a good sign.) I'll get some feedback next Tuesday when I go back to work. There's another job at an in between level coming up, so this will all have to start again.
I'm not really sure how I feel. This has been a big thing for the last two months and I do feel disappointed, let down and flat. On the other hand also a bit relieved because although I think I could do the job, I'm not sure if I really want to manage people. I would rather be really good at what I do, and do it at a higher level, if that were a possibility. Mostly I think I feel overexposed, in the way you do when you've just been a disorganised sweaty person rambling incoherently in front of three people you have to go on working with.
The whole thing has turned out to be quite stressful and I need to unwind. I'm driving down to Brighton today, to a birthday party tonight and an Autumn Equinox celebration tomorrow night, so hopefully this will help. I had an hour on the phone to the fluffKitten this morning which was lovely and helped a lot. I keep reminding myself of all the good things in my life. I wish I didn't have so many reasons to feel a bit crap right now, but I am trying to stay afloat in spite of them, .
A major reason for wanting the job was because of the money. Andi and I have to prove that we have enough money for us both to live on so they'll let her into the country, and I'm worried that I don't earn enough. I've spent a couple of hours this morning digging up information on civil partnerships and immigration legislation online, and attempting to ring the UK Visas office, but without success. It is very irritating to have to listen to a three minute recorded message each time before being told all the advisors are busy, please ring back later. Three times. Grr. Anyone out there done this kind of thing before, or have any information about how much money/income is enough? I would very much like to stop worrying about this.
I'm not really sure how I feel. This has been a big thing for the last two months and I do feel disappointed, let down and flat. On the other hand also a bit relieved because although I think I could do the job, I'm not sure if I really want to manage people. I would rather be really good at what I do, and do it at a higher level, if that were a possibility. Mostly I think I feel overexposed, in the way you do when you've just been a disorganised sweaty person rambling incoherently in front of three people you have to go on working with.
The whole thing has turned out to be quite stressful and I need to unwind. I'm driving down to Brighton today, to a birthday party tonight and an Autumn Equinox celebration tomorrow night, so hopefully this will help. I had an hour on the phone to the fluffKitten this morning which was lovely and helped a lot. I keep reminding myself of all the good things in my life. I wish I didn't have so many reasons to feel a bit crap right now, but I am trying to stay afloat in spite of them, .
A major reason for wanting the job was because of the money. Andi and I have to prove that we have enough money for us both to live on so they'll let her into the country, and I'm worried that I don't earn enough. I've spent a couple of hours this morning digging up information on civil partnerships and immigration legislation online, and attempting to ring the UK Visas office, but without success. It is very irritating to have to listen to a three minute recorded message each time before being told all the advisors are busy, please ring back later. Three times. Grr. Anyone out there done this kind of thing before, or have any information about how much money/income is enough? I would very much like to stop worrying about this.