I miss you.

[wanderlustlover]

I remember you. Perfectly. Down to the details that amazed me.

I remember too much. I remember how nervous and in awe of you I was. I remember how much I loved you. I remember how many of my hopes and dreams involved you. I remember how much of my future was built with you in mind to share it with. I remember how much you hurt me. I remember how you tore my pride to shreds, just standing there taking it from you. I remember how much to took to get me to walk away from you.

What was it Ian said? "I love you.....in my ungaurded moments."

I love pretty close to everyone. You included. It takes strength and will power to tell anyone I love you, even if it involves telling your story, because you are a section of my heart where the light is dimmed to almost darkness. And talking to you opens so many closed doors. Dusts the coal covering over the still burning ember that is emblazened with love and faith in you.

I'm too realistic for you now. Too wary of you. There is not an us. It died, by your lips. And yet.......

I miss you so much it burns........in my ungaurded moments.