31 Days of Blogging: XX - A difficult time in your life
XX - A difficult time in your life
My sister's first death scare. My parents divorce. My sister dying of cancer when I was fifteen. My sister living with cancer for the thirteen years before that. Having ADHD so bad I grew up very, very, very intimately aware of what passive restraint meant from the age of four. The first two people I fell in love with. The entire time while my nickname was 'Angel.'
Giving up crying years before turning ten. The whole decade or more I've been working on reclaiming it. Every single day I have a migraine and have to lay down instantly in the prayer of losing my night and saving my week. Being kicked out by my mother. Being forgotten for years by my father. The mini-religious fight's in my early teens.
The eight months after Mini Christmas. All of the time spent unemployed this year. And the time spent unemployed the year before USAA. Phoenix, living with him, breaking up with him, and then organizing everything from his wake to a multi-state trip for a funeral after he'd died in a car crash. The six weeks when I was told I wasn't allowed to walk while in Korea.
Things? I make odd faces when I have to list things like this, because I don't think of my childhood, or teenage years, or life, in general, as a difficult place. It's had difficult things in it, extremely difficult things at times, but it's just you're life, you know? You live through and around them, and make it as beautiful as possible, in the world and your soul as you can.
But lists like this make me squint back at the past like maybe I forgot they were mountains and not hills in the rearview mirror. And to think, I still have at least two-thirds of my life before me. Oh, the places you'll go.
1. Introduction and recent photo ( LJ/DW)
2. 20 facts about you ( LJ/DW)
3. Your favorite quote ( LJ/DW)
4. What are you afraid of? ( LJ/DW)
5. 10 songs you love right now ( LJ/DW)
6. Your 5 senses right now ( LJ/DW)
7. Your pet hates ( LJ/DW)
8. What's in your handbag? ( LJ/DW)
9. What are your worst habits? ( LJ/DW)
10. What's your best physical feature? ( LJ/DW)
11. List 15 of your favorite things ( LJ/DW)
12. What's inside your fridge? ( LJ/DW)
13. What is your earliest memory? ( LJ/DW)
14. If you won the lottery... ( LJ/DW)
15. Timeline of your day ( LJ/DW)
16. What's at the top of your bucket list? ( LJ/DW)
17. What is your most proud moment? ( LJ/DW)
18. The meaning behind your blog name ( LJ/DW)
19. What do you collect? ( LJ/DW)
20. A difficult time in your life
21. Your 10 favorite foods
22. The best thing to happen this year
23. Your dream job
24. Your favorite childhood book
25. Your 5 favorite blogs
26. An old photo of you
27. Post your favorite recipe
28. What are you looking forward to?
29. Where have you travelled?
30. What's in your makeup bag?
31. Why do you blog?
[This entry was originally posted at http://wanderlustlover.dreamwidth.org/2260851.html. Comment on either at your leisure.]
My sister's first death scare. My parents divorce. My sister dying of cancer when I was fifteen. My sister living with cancer for the thirteen years before that. Having ADHD so bad I grew up very, very, very intimately aware of what passive restraint meant from the age of four. The first two people I fell in love with. The entire time while my nickname was 'Angel.'
Giving up crying years before turning ten. The whole decade or more I've been working on reclaiming it. Every single day I have a migraine and have to lay down instantly in the prayer of losing my night and saving my week. Being kicked out by my mother. Being forgotten for years by my father. The mini-religious fight's in my early teens.
The eight months after Mini Christmas. All of the time spent unemployed this year. And the time spent unemployed the year before USAA. Phoenix, living with him, breaking up with him, and then organizing everything from his wake to a multi-state trip for a funeral after he'd died in a car crash. The six weeks when I was told I wasn't allowed to walk while in Korea.
Things? I make odd faces when I have to list things like this, because I don't think of my childhood, or teenage years, or life, in general, as a difficult place. It's had difficult things in it, extremely difficult things at times, but it's just you're life, you know? You live through and around them, and make it as beautiful as possible, in the world and your soul as you can.
But lists like this make me squint back at the past like maybe I forgot they were mountains and not hills in the rearview mirror. And to think, I still have at least two-thirds of my life before me. Oh, the places you'll go.
1. Introduction and recent photo ( LJ/DW)
2. 20 facts about you ( LJ/DW)
3. Your favorite quote ( LJ/DW)
4. What are you afraid of? ( LJ/DW)
5. 10 songs you love right now ( LJ/DW)
6. Your 5 senses right now ( LJ/DW)
7. Your pet hates ( LJ/DW)
8. What's in your handbag? ( LJ/DW)
9. What are your worst habits? ( LJ/DW)
10. What's your best physical feature? ( LJ/DW)
11. List 15 of your favorite things ( LJ/DW)
12. What's inside your fridge? ( LJ/DW)
13. What is your earliest memory? ( LJ/DW)
14. If you won the lottery... ( LJ/DW)
15. Timeline of your day ( LJ/DW)
16. What's at the top of your bucket list? ( LJ/DW)
17. What is your most proud moment? ( LJ/DW)
18. The meaning behind your blog name ( LJ/DW)
19. What do you collect? ( LJ/DW)
20. A difficult time in your life
21. Your 10 favorite foods
22. The best thing to happen this year
23. Your dream job
24. Your favorite childhood book
25. Your 5 favorite blogs
26. An old photo of you
27. Post your favorite recipe
28. What are you looking forward to?
29. Where have you travelled?
30. What's in your makeup bag?
31. Why do you blog?
[This entry was originally posted at http://wanderlustlover.dreamwidth.org/2260851.html. Comment on either at your leisure.]