Meta for Meta's Sake

May 12, 2013 00:53

Because I want to start keeping these, and because I really am writing in places and they could be in all the places, too. Uhm. It's hard to exactly catch you up to speed without an entirely long schpiel that would need it's own post. Uh, I kind of write Hawaii Five-0 meta all over the place on tumblr these days and I may have had a two-week pacifistic altercation with Michelle Borth (yes, that Michelle Borth), that might not even be over, along with a handful of others.



I have, I think I am discovering because of this fandom and Michelle, herself, a thicker skin than I ever believed I had before. I bypass things in twitter or tumblr daily about ‘little bitter angry monkeys/bitches/cunts’ or on tumblr where people tag their pictures with hoping anyone daring to tag a post with an alternate view ‘steps on a lego,’ and I never get angry. I feel an incredible sympathy, and empathetic charity, toward those people that these things fill up their time and spill out to the public, wishing anger or hurt a single soul of this ever-decreasing audience.

But I keep going -no matter how dim fandom looks at times, or how terrible the ratings on the show are (reflecting millions of people’s distate with this season by choosing not even to watch)- because I love this show. Because I love Steve and Danny and Chin and Kono and Max and Shamu and Charlie and Grace and Rachel and so many more. Because no matter how convoluted the season gets I remember who they were that I fell in love with, especially in Season One.

Because somewhere inside all the terrible things of this season is still that person I love. That show I love unabashedly. That show I refuse to let bad writing, producer fanboying, actress-fandom bashing or fandom-fandom bashing poison. I refuse. I refuse that as much as I refused to let Michelle stay on my twitter if all she was going to do was insult me. Because I have no time, or patience, for mindless negativity.

This is something I love.

This is something I can not help wanting to talk about all the time. I spend days and days talking my enabler about the smallest bits of every episode, bringing up random facts, talking about how which-what scenes parallel and allude to other episodes, other season, other situation. I squee and I poke and I prod and I pull it apart and put it back together, like a puzzle box each weeks, because stories are the life of my fannish heart right now.

As a writer, as a english major. Because they are glorious. And because they can be done well, without anyone need to “just let it go, because it’s tv make believe.” I don’t mean any insult to people who watch with Reality Goggles off, but it’s not how I do. I was trained to go through stories and pick them apart and write twenty and thirty page papers, from any and every angle.

This is what I do. This is my passion. So every time we get into it, I want to. Deeply. Passionately. I want to talk and write, and tear apar and piece back together, like an endless multifaceted puzzle pieced art work, about how every domino effects every other domino. About how bad choices just like good choices in writing effect character growth as much as the regression of growth. Because it is all canon.

(And I am, if you don’t know me well enough to realize this yet, a dyed in the wool canon purist. Even when I delight in things in my fic or my gaming that aren’t canon. This, also, effects why I don’t read much AU universe fic even for H50.)

Personally? I hope you do write. Even if it’s just for yourself.

Write about your characters. Write about your show. Write about what makes your heart happy and what turns your stomach. Write about the speechless gasping glee and tiny one line details. Write into the marrow of the bones of your passion, and hold on for dear life. Because this is yours. Even if you are alone. Even if no one else agrees. Write for yourself. Write for your love of it and them, for the love and passion existing in your fingers alone.

And if people decide you’re wrong - if *I* don’t agree with with even, at all, any (because my views contradict my enabler even, at times, but respectfully, cheerfully, excitedly, because discussions and differences are a blessing in a accepting environment and her insights bring me things *I* missed) - keep writing.

Keeping writing because it is your right to be passionate, about this thing you love, no matter who agrees or doesn’t. Be ready for the people who surprisingly will agree, and the people who will passionate disagree. And forget entirely, block away, turn off, the people who simply throw stones to throw stones. Don’t let them win. Don’t let the monsters and the darkness ever win.

Rage, rage, against the dying of that light inside of you, or your freedom, or your fandom. And know you’ll always have a supporter in me, in your writing from your heart and soul and passion, no matter what we agree or disagree on view wise.

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