A Short, Muddle Overview of My Night
I am truly deeply lost without my laptop. My weekends plans as well as my plans for tonight show that. I over book things, or completely forget I have really important things I have to do. Or both, at the exact same time.
I went to my work dinner, where I drank a little too much for a work function, while sitting next to my boss (again, today, after being next to him during the Unit Meeting, too), but this ended up okay and no one could tell. And there was much in the way of laughter and five million stories about everything from everyone. I only ever love this group, and this job, more.
Left an hour into it because I had RCG Third Thursday, too. Which was lovely, even if I brainlessly forgot it was tonight until twenty minutes to needing to leave for the dinner (which I left early for, too, so I could hit Godiva, by restaurant, and pick up new chocolates to surprise Earl with). But I arrived in time, and hugged many people.
I was floaty and I'm not sure when that faded away. I was in my space and I talked about a memory that it surprised me to have surface during our Mabon ritual. There was a lot of gravitating to certain people. I recognize what my emotional barometer is doing, even if logically I'm not yet prepared to discuss (handle?) the sudden lack of my entire support system.
Which isn't abandonment, my community is still all around me, simply the shift in mass opinion on my present lifestyle choices. I was glad for the deep listening exercise, and the feast of eating the Goddess of Harvest. Talking afterward and cuddling or hugging so many. There was so much laughter and tears and smiling, some truly blush worthy compliments I got from completely different people on silly and serious topics.
And oddly enough being point-blank asked out by a brand new woman, on behalf of herself and her husband, 'if I was interested in that kind of thing.'
I'm thinking my life may be going in some very interesting ways soon, given the rumblings of my life in the last month and especially few weeks. I'm still thinking a lot on the meditation from the ritual, what I saw and what I think it means about everything I'm going through right now. All in all tonight was surprisingly wonderful.
So now it is bed time, because my eyelids are telling me I am still exhausted under this.
Also. I still haven't gotten my screen either. Which makes me cranky, as I ordered the replacement a week ago today with five day shipping. Even at five business days it should be to me now. I dislike this. A lot.
I went to my work dinner, where I drank a little too much for a work function, while sitting next to my boss (again, today, after being next to him during the Unit Meeting, too), but this ended up okay and no one could tell. And there was much in the way of laughter and five million stories about everything from everyone. I only ever love this group, and this job, more.
Left an hour into it because I had RCG Third Thursday, too. Which was lovely, even if I brainlessly forgot it was tonight until twenty minutes to needing to leave for the dinner (which I left early for, too, so I could hit Godiva, by restaurant, and pick up new chocolates to surprise Earl with). But I arrived in time, and hugged many people.
I was floaty and I'm not sure when that faded away. I was in my space and I talked about a memory that it surprised me to have surface during our Mabon ritual. There was a lot of gravitating to certain people. I recognize what my emotional barometer is doing, even if logically I'm not yet prepared to discuss (handle?) the sudden lack of my entire support system.
Which isn't abandonment, my community is still all around me, simply the shift in mass opinion on my present lifestyle choices. I was glad for the deep listening exercise, and the feast of eating the Goddess of Harvest. Talking afterward and cuddling or hugging so many. There was so much laughter and tears and smiling, some truly blush worthy compliments I got from completely different people on silly and serious topics.
And oddly enough being point-blank asked out by a brand new woman, on behalf of herself and her husband, 'if I was interested in that kind of thing.'
I'm thinking my life may be going in some very interesting ways soon, given the rumblings of my life in the last month and especially few weeks. I'm still thinking a lot on the meditation from the ritual, what I saw and what I think it means about everything I'm going through right now. All in all tonight was surprisingly wonderful.
So now it is bed time, because my eyelids are telling me I am still exhausted under this.
Also. I still haven't gotten my screen either. Which makes me cranky, as I ordered the replacement a week ago today with five day shipping. Even at five business days it should be to me now. I dislike this. A lot.