the tide is high, but I'm holding on
You taste like dust on the wind
Last September's leaves
Ashes in a tin
I thought that I was okay today, until I reached RCG. Until I realized I could just sit there on the bench and do absolutely nothing and then I never moved again. I didn't dance. I barely sang above a mumble. And I was finally aware of the pressure still sitting on my chest and the wired-locked exhausting/exhausted feeling that hasn't left my bones since yesterday afternoon. I'm--
You know. Sometimes it's amazing to have a place you can go, where nothing is expected of you except to be who you are, wherever you are, right now, to know that you can go there, and be that, and be ultimately, amazingly supported. Even sitting down on a bench and doing absolutely nothing trying to feel it all out.
I love RCG, and tonight was Potluck/Psychic Faire. I was really sad that I missed last month's Temperance/The World Path, even if my Reunion did beat it out. (Every Ten years > Every month) And I will be sad to miss out on Hanged Man/Chariot in September, except then it's Dragon*Con. (Once a year > Once a month). But at least there was tonight.
Seeing people I've missed, some whom I'm planning Path's with, even some who were checking in on me rather verily close, since we're halfway through this four set of trips. And. You know. I've stopped writing anything at all personally related or life situational indicative anywhere on any filter or social network. More than three weeks running now. So. There was that.
I picked up beautiful, witchy-woman made pieces for my first starblessedswap (hopefully my person won't be allergic, or the pieces will wait until later). I loved the presentation during our potluck, too. I love seeing what each of the women who presents decides to share with us. They radiate so much as they talk about their joy.
I stopped by Border's after the whole evening packed itself up, too. As their sale has moved into the 40%-60% off realm as of today. So, in turn, it became time to shop for Christmas Presents. I have now picked up the first gifts for my nieces, roommate and girlfriend. We'll see how long the store stays open and keeps dropping. (I might be eying one of the aromatherapy/microwavable stuffed animals for myself *if* they keep dropping.)
Last September's leaves
Ashes in a tin
I thought that I was okay today, until I reached RCG. Until I realized I could just sit there on the bench and do absolutely nothing and then I never moved again. I didn't dance. I barely sang above a mumble. And I was finally aware of the pressure still sitting on my chest and the wired-locked exhausting/exhausted feeling that hasn't left my bones since yesterday afternoon. I'm--
You know. Sometimes it's amazing to have a place you can go, where nothing is expected of you except to be who you are, wherever you are, right now, to know that you can go there, and be that, and be ultimately, amazingly supported. Even sitting down on a bench and doing absolutely nothing trying to feel it all out.
I love RCG, and tonight was Potluck/Psychic Faire. I was really sad that I missed last month's Temperance/The World Path, even if my Reunion did beat it out. (Every Ten years > Every month) And I will be sad to miss out on Hanged Man/Chariot in September, except then it's Dragon*Con. (Once a year > Once a month). But at least there was tonight.
Seeing people I've missed, some whom I'm planning Path's with, even some who were checking in on me rather verily close, since we're halfway through this four set of trips. And. You know. I've stopped writing anything at all personally related or life situational indicative anywhere on any filter or social network. More than three weeks running now. So. There was that.
I picked up beautiful, witchy-woman made pieces for my first starblessedswap (hopefully my person won't be allergic, or the pieces will wait until later). I loved the presentation during our potluck, too. I love seeing what each of the women who presents decides to share with us. They radiate so much as they talk about their joy.
I stopped by Border's after the whole evening packed itself up, too. As their sale has moved into the 40%-60% off realm as of today. So, in turn, it became time to shop for Christmas Presents. I have now picked up the first gifts for my nieces, roommate and girlfriend. We'll see how long the store stays open and keeps dropping. (I might be eying one of the aromatherapy/microwavable stuffed animals for myself *if* they keep dropping.)