Things Owed, Post Two -- Brown
My life has been insane the last two weeks stress wise. It's August. I've fallen apart once for a weekend. I've burst into tears a completely other time. I'm struggling to make ends meet, to remind myself constantly in a daily war with my head and my heart that people who I would take care of in a heartbeat if the position were reversed are allowed to take care of me, and spending my days in heels or pj’s constantly at applications, job fairs, resumes, calling my staffing agencies.
My life in many others places has fallen into fallow.
From games to livejournal to religious classes I'm doing myself.
I did read Brown two weeks ago, on the first day of this month, and I did create my altar to Brown at the end of the first week. And he's been talking to me through pennies (which I maybe should clarify later?). I am not out of the woods by any shot of the imagination yet, in reference to the above, and I'm already looking at the possibility of extending my Brown month one longer. I'm not even beating myself up for it. I just want to do it properly. Do him justice. His message.
I don't know yet. We'll see. It's between him and I what we make of these next two weeks.
For now, have a Brown Altar Part One.
The center top is a brown candle again. Around the base of it is the mala bracelet I made by hand in RCG. The long beads around it are two different color sandal wood prayer beads I got in Korea from different temples last year. The clay at the far end is a leather mold I made last year, as well, with the words "Ash, Oak & Thorn" etched into it. The heart is the first Spell Star (but heart shaped) give to me by an Grove sister not long ago.
Instead the prayer beads, at the top next the red bead on my mala, is a very special tiger's eye. It's red and for over six years it's been in my bag that carried my Oracle Cards, Rune Cards and Runes. This altar is the first time I've pulled it out. The other side, next to the mala tassel, is my copper ring made by one of the women I hold very dear in RCG. At the end inside is a Glamourkin which reads "Dreaming Down the Moon."
My life in many others places has fallen into fallow.
From games to livejournal to religious classes I'm doing myself.
I did read Brown two weeks ago, on the first day of this month, and I did create my altar to Brown at the end of the first week. And he's been talking to me through pennies (which I maybe should clarify later?). I am not out of the woods by any shot of the imagination yet, in reference to the above, and I'm already looking at the possibility of extending my Brown month one longer. I'm not even beating myself up for it. I just want to do it properly. Do him justice. His message.
I don't know yet. We'll see. It's between him and I what we make of these next two weeks.
For now, have a Brown Altar Part One.
The center top is a brown candle again. Around the base of it is the mala bracelet I made by hand in RCG. The long beads around it are two different color sandal wood prayer beads I got in Korea from different temples last year. The clay at the far end is a leather mold I made last year, as well, with the words "Ash, Oak & Thorn" etched into it. The heart is the first Spell Star (but heart shaped) give to me by an Grove sister not long ago.
Instead the prayer beads, at the top next the red bead on my mala, is a very special tiger's eye. It's red and for over six years it's been in my bag that carried my Oracle Cards, Rune Cards and Runes. This altar is the first time I've pulled it out. The other side, next to the mala tassel, is my copper ring made by one of the women I hold very dear in RCG. At the end inside is a Glamourkin which reads "Dreaming Down the Moon."