Hard morning here this morning
Not mine, so don't worry to much preemptively.
The hurry-up-and-wait emergency parts have been mostly handled, and so now I'm laying on my bed, waiting for the rest of it to be handled before I can figure out the rest of my day and if I'm still doing all of my evening plans. Everything was put on hold, which I don't mind doing for the person I did it for. He could ask for far more and I'd do it without blinking each time.
But mostly I'm laying on my bed, waiting, thinking about how this whole situation and the one that parallels it from my late childhood, and the tensions it's caused and is causing in the lives that are within the reach of my arms, and for the very most about how I'm not nineteen anymore and that I've given up my willingness to be anything like it or with anyone who puts me there.
How many things have changed inside of me from when I was that age, or even from two years.
I'm going to nap or read and wait for the final outcome,
see you for the other side of this mediation on it once that's accomplished.
The hurry-up-and-wait emergency parts have been mostly handled, and so now I'm laying on my bed, waiting for the rest of it to be handled before I can figure out the rest of my day and if I'm still doing all of my evening plans. Everything was put on hold, which I don't mind doing for the person I did it for. He could ask for far more and I'd do it without blinking each time.
But mostly I'm laying on my bed, waiting, thinking about how this whole situation and the one that parallels it from my late childhood, and the tensions it's caused and is causing in the lives that are within the reach of my arms, and for the very most about how I'm not nineteen anymore and that I've given up my willingness to be anything like it or with anyone who puts me there.
How many things have changed inside of me from when I was that age, or even from two years.
I'm going to nap or read and wait for the final outcome,
see you for the other side of this mediation on it once that's accomplished.