Changing Time, Progressive Thoughts
I've made some important decisions lately about my computer use. In one part based on things two (maybe, three) of my closest, master's graduate, friends have said and in a second part based on how unhealthy my computer focus has become in the last few months.
Taking into account the graduate school (class times and homework) and then work I've known after the past few days I was going to have to make some changes. I sat aside some time, amid the chaos, to think about my future, but what really got to me was waking up from an unplanned three hour nap in the middle of my homework reading yesterday. I can't keep burning the candle at both ends, while stressed, and expect to maintain myself well through everything.
Reminds me of the guy at Father Paul's exeunt reception; he said everyone has their break down, shake down, serious period somewhere around the sixth week. This seems to be mine.
I'm going to cut back on computer time because in the equation it's the least important thing taking up a great amount of time. This will be complicated and take some time to find an equilibrium on because it is also my television and music player. I'm going to cut down on the needless hours I spend cruising the net in abject boredom. I'm going to stop looking at my friendslist before breakfast or the very moment I get home after work.
I'm not giving up my computer mind you--
There will still be a morning read and sometimes night time gaming. I'll still need my word for writing poetry and fic pieces, not to mention the homework which ranks in highest. I'll likely still watch a show if I have a free hour or interest, or leave it playing music and just set it up on top of the vcr.
--just doing some healthy cutting back so I can manage to not be as stressed as I've been lately. I don't want to be sleeping in my extra time because it's all my body craves from being so stressed. I'm going to focus more of that time which is free into having a life outside of my house and couch; be that with Billy or my family or pursuing religious intentions/hobbies.
I'm taking one friends advice and choosing a day a week in which to relax and spend only being myself, so I don't get lost in the shuffle. Like a day or night out; even if the definition of that ends up being sitting in a coffee house writing poetry or reading a text book while getting to intermittently watch the midnight crowd shuffle in and out.
I want to go back to having more time to read novels that aren't text books, too. I've let slip due to spending so much time on here. I want to go back to seeing sights in the city once or twice a month. I've let that slip across the lat year and it's grating on me now. The last month I let my appointments which keep me involved in my religion with others slide entirely. I've been tired and restless from my free time being spent inside the walls of houses. I'm only starting to grow frustrated at my bad scheduling and stress.
This all needs to change. And it's better now than later.
I'm rambling now though, without more direction yet. I'm going to go read more of Morrison's Song of Solomon in the hopes I can get much closer to finishing it tonight or tomorrow. More thoughts on this as they settle out.
Taking into account the graduate school (class times and homework) and then work I've known after the past few days I was going to have to make some changes. I sat aside some time, amid the chaos, to think about my future, but what really got to me was waking up from an unplanned three hour nap in the middle of my homework reading yesterday. I can't keep burning the candle at both ends, while stressed, and expect to maintain myself well through everything.
Reminds me of the guy at Father Paul's exeunt reception; he said everyone has their break down, shake down, serious period somewhere around the sixth week. This seems to be mine.
I'm going to cut back on computer time because in the equation it's the least important thing taking up a great amount of time. This will be complicated and take some time to find an equilibrium on because it is also my television and music player. I'm going to cut down on the needless hours I spend cruising the net in abject boredom. I'm going to stop looking at my friendslist before breakfast or the very moment I get home after work.
I'm not giving up my computer mind you--
There will still be a morning read and sometimes night time gaming. I'll still need my word for writing poetry and fic pieces, not to mention the homework which ranks in highest. I'll likely still watch a show if I have a free hour or interest, or leave it playing music and just set it up on top of the vcr.
--just doing some healthy cutting back so I can manage to not be as stressed as I've been lately. I don't want to be sleeping in my extra time because it's all my body craves from being so stressed. I'm going to focus more of that time which is free into having a life outside of my house and couch; be that with Billy or my family or pursuing religious intentions/hobbies.
I'm taking one friends advice and choosing a day a week in which to relax and spend only being myself, so I don't get lost in the shuffle. Like a day or night out; even if the definition of that ends up being sitting in a coffee house writing poetry or reading a text book while getting to intermittently watch the midnight crowd shuffle in and out.
I want to go back to having more time to read novels that aren't text books, too. I've let slip due to spending so much time on here. I want to go back to seeing sights in the city once or twice a month. I've let that slip across the lat year and it's grating on me now. The last month I let my appointments which keep me involved in my religion with others slide entirely. I've been tired and restless from my free time being spent inside the walls of houses. I'm only starting to grow frustrated at my bad scheduling and stress.
This all needs to change. And it's better now than later.
I'm rambling now though, without more direction yet. I'm going to go read more of Morrison's Song of Solomon in the hopes I can get much closer to finishing it tonight or tomorrow. More thoughts on this as they settle out.