Last Week/end
Late last week I finally had band practice with each of the two bands. It felt so good to finally wield the ol' drumsticks again. I haven't practiced with either band since before Christmas, so it's been a while. Aaaahhh it just felt so right playing drums again.
Then Friday night I got to have a private evening with my sweet and evil girl - because her parents are out of town so we raided their wonderfully enormous house, played with the cat, and went outdoor hot tubbing.
Saturday night - "open mic" at Ambrosia co-op. It was awesome! A comfy living room filled with couches and people, a fireplace, and 2 friendly dogs. Kent, Brandon, and I dragged our instruments over there and everyone welcomed us into their house. The first song we played was Wagon Wheel, and nearly everyone sang alone - me included! It was a really good time. I wanted to stay, but Nikki and I agreed to meet 2 of her friends and do another night of hot tubbing, and I can never pass up hot tubbing. Being in an outdoor hot tub when it's -1 degree outside is a bit interesting. My hair and Coke were both frozen with ice chunks.
At the my future consciousness grad program at JFK, they offer start-your-own-business classes. I think I'll take them. An idea also popped into my head this morning. On rare occasions, ideas pop into my head in certain ways, and I usually can't ignore them. They're usually important, and I usually go with them. They come from deep within. So anyway, the idea that popped in this morning was that maybe sometime down the line, like in say 10 years, after I've made a life for myself in Cali, maybe I can run my own bdsm joint. Obviously this would happen in a matter of steps. First, I live in the community, like I have been in Madison, and then if my ambition does take me further, maybe run an event at a club, the way Karcus runs Sabbat, or how Jade used to run Kinked at the Annex (ahh those were my early wide-eyed days). Eventually what would be cool is to (I'm talking my 30s now, I have patience) one day get a place with a club-type area on the main floor, a dungeon-basement for private events, and then have upstairs rooms for meeting, discussions, and classes. This is just an idea. But it was a Pop-Into-Jess-Head Idea, so I have to consider it and put it in my mind for future use.
One thing is certain - when I do make this move, I know it'll be hard at first socially. I do plan on online-contacting people ahead of time, so there will already be people to meet when I get there, potential friends. But eventually, down the line, I really would like to create my *own* social circles, in the way the Keith E., Jade, and Karcus have. They run events, host parties, and have practically a family of friends, lovers, just people they care about. It's really a beautiful thing and something I want to cultivate in the future. I haven't made the biggest attempt to become that in Madison - I'm so young and have just been learning and coming to terms with myself, learning to be social etc. And until I leave I'll continue to enjoy the company of the wonderful people I know here. But when I do move, I want to take the next step into social interaction, bump it up a notch, the exact same way I did when I came to college. I remember being a raggedy, ugly-in-every-way, anxiety-ridden girl fresh out of high school - that first night I spent in the dorms, I put in my contacts and my Muse shirt, swallowed a handful of Raisinets, and marched into practically every dorm room saying hello, cracking jokes, and meeting people - I made a bunch of friends that night, 2 or 3 of whom are still close friends of mine. I just put away the bullshit fear and dove in. That's what I need to do if I move, except I have it better because I'm already many steps ahead. Down the line though, I have ambitions of being a Jessica version of Keith E. or Jade, running my own show, so to speak.
I LOVE Sriracha hot sauce! Every time I have chicken or rice I spread that wonderful hot sauce on. I'm thinking about it right now..........mmmmmm...........
Then Friday night I got to have a private evening with my sweet and evil girl - because her parents are out of town so we raided their wonderfully enormous house, played with the cat, and went outdoor hot tubbing.
Saturday night - "open mic" at Ambrosia co-op. It was awesome! A comfy living room filled with couches and people, a fireplace, and 2 friendly dogs. Kent, Brandon, and I dragged our instruments over there and everyone welcomed us into their house. The first song we played was Wagon Wheel, and nearly everyone sang alone - me included! It was a really good time. I wanted to stay, but Nikki and I agreed to meet 2 of her friends and do another night of hot tubbing, and I can never pass up hot tubbing. Being in an outdoor hot tub when it's -1 degree outside is a bit interesting. My hair and Coke were both frozen with ice chunks.
At the my future consciousness grad program at JFK, they offer start-your-own-business classes. I think I'll take them. An idea also popped into my head this morning. On rare occasions, ideas pop into my head in certain ways, and I usually can't ignore them. They're usually important, and I usually go with them. They come from deep within. So anyway, the idea that popped in this morning was that maybe sometime down the line, like in say 10 years, after I've made a life for myself in Cali, maybe I can run my own bdsm joint. Obviously this would happen in a matter of steps. First, I live in the community, like I have been in Madison, and then if my ambition does take me further, maybe run an event at a club, the way Karcus runs Sabbat, or how Jade used to run Kinked at the Annex (ahh those were my early wide-eyed days). Eventually what would be cool is to (I'm talking my 30s now, I have patience) one day get a place with a club-type area on the main floor, a dungeon-basement for private events, and then have upstairs rooms for meeting, discussions, and classes. This is just an idea. But it was a Pop-Into-Jess-Head Idea, so I have to consider it and put it in my mind for future use.
One thing is certain - when I do make this move, I know it'll be hard at first socially. I do plan on online-contacting people ahead of time, so there will already be people to meet when I get there, potential friends. But eventually, down the line, I really would like to create my *own* social circles, in the way the Keith E., Jade, and Karcus have. They run events, host parties, and have practically a family of friends, lovers, just people they care about. It's really a beautiful thing and something I want to cultivate in the future. I haven't made the biggest attempt to become that in Madison - I'm so young and have just been learning and coming to terms with myself, learning to be social etc. And until I leave I'll continue to enjoy the company of the wonderful people I know here. But when I do move, I want to take the next step into social interaction, bump it up a notch, the exact same way I did when I came to college. I remember being a raggedy, ugly-in-every-way, anxiety-ridden girl fresh out of high school - that first night I spent in the dorms, I put in my contacts and my Muse shirt, swallowed a handful of Raisinets, and marched into practically every dorm room saying hello, cracking jokes, and meeting people - I made a bunch of friends that night, 2 or 3 of whom are still close friends of mine. I just put away the bullshit fear and dove in. That's what I need to do if I move, except I have it better because I'm already many steps ahead. Down the line though, I have ambitions of being a Jessica version of Keith E. or Jade, running my own show, so to speak.
I LOVE Sriracha hot sauce! Every time I have chicken or rice I spread that wonderful hot sauce on. I'm thinking about it right now..........mmmmmm...........