Life is what happens despite your best laid plans....
How quickly things have changed in a year...two moves, one to escape the psychos and one to escape myself; got together with shaun, broke up with shaun, had two TRAGICALLY bad examples of the male persuasion ravage my soul, realized how awesome shaun is, got back with shaun (LOL); one job with midgets, another stint with retirement, and (hopefully) a new job with a new midget....
I KNEW no one liked you when you're 23.
However, while throughout the course of the year I honestly thought all of my trials and tribulations would be about as useful to me as a cock flavored lollipop, I've found that somewhere along the way, I really did grow up ALOT. I let go of the most clinging assumptions and hopes and reality-blind fantasies at last (although I was dragged behind some kicking and screaming as they were ripped away, but la...) And....SURPRISE! Things really are better. I have a MUCH better eye for people now...and I'm much slower to trust words instead of actions. I have a grip on my self destructive tendencies and am cleaning up my psychological mess that held me back. People wont always be what I want them to be, but they will always be whatthey are if I can just be honest with myself about them....Including myself... Feels good to be starting over again. No tolerance for bullshit...no angry bitter beliefs....just acceptance and a smile for how naive I was....
I KNEW no one liked you when you're 23.
However, while throughout the course of the year I honestly thought all of my trials and tribulations would be about as useful to me as a cock flavored lollipop, I've found that somewhere along the way, I really did grow up ALOT. I let go of the most clinging assumptions and hopes and reality-blind fantasies at last (although I was dragged behind some kicking and screaming as they were ripped away, but la...) And....SURPRISE! Things really are better. I have a MUCH better eye for people now...and I'm much slower to trust words instead of actions. I have a grip on my self destructive tendencies and am cleaning up my psychological mess that held me back. People wont always be what I want them to be, but they will always be whatthey are if I can just be honest with myself about them....Including myself... Feels good to be starting over again. No tolerance for bullshit...no angry bitter beliefs....just acceptance and a smile for how naive I was....