Feb 21, 2017 20:40
Hiatus would have been much longer, but I'm slowly catching up on entries once again. It is hard to separate from Livejournal.
I'm doing just OK in school. Getting straight A's is impossible when I am also trying to survive in my daily life. And that's OK. I just want to finish. I took a break from Livejournal thinking that I can do some time management, but that failed terribly. Other issues keeps on coming. I feel like my life is plagued by unforeseen circumstances that I am never ready for.
I can go on, but at the end of the day, I've reflected about how unhealthy it is to be super selfless.
This is what I plan to do about it:
- Become more assertive
-Tell the truth
- Declutter (this one is in the works. This one will just relieve my stress, haha.
Same in platonic and romantic relationships too. I am in such a delicate year or two in my life when my career is more important right now. I know my capacity in terms of how much I can give or sacrifice. I'm not one to ask: what can this person do for me in return?
And then one day, I did.
It is sometimes important to reflect about the people we become "selfless" for. Are they worth the sacrifices? Are they worth the ache?
Random thought.
When it comes to change all I can is: Embrace change -- embrace the change even if it is suddenly forced upon you. Embrace change for the good. Embrace change even if it brings drawbacks. Embrace change.
At the end of the day, I just need to suck it up and keep moving forward.
life