Entry 5/8

[wanderingtora]

...I really need to do a better job of using this after I went through the trouble of grabbing it. The entire point was to help me keep better track of time...and the events of what could pass for my life that time and my own memory seems to easily forget. Maybe in time, I'll start seeing some patterns that I've managed to overlook through the

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[runaway_lynx]

What do you mean by gracious savior?

[wanderingtora]

I call them gracious saviors, but most people...probably call it "lending a hand in 'rescuing' you when they've got no reason to try beyond them thinking you need it and they want to".

[runaway_lynx]

Isn't that just being nice? Did you need help?

[wanderingtora]

More of a nuisance than nice, seeing as, no, I didn't need their help.

[runaway_lynx]

What made them want to ask you if you needed help~? You don't have to say if you don't feel like it but I'm just curious.

[wanderingtora]

One of them kept staring stalkerishly at me because apparently they know everyone at the market and I wasn't a regular. ...And then I bumped into his woman while trying to get away from him. That's about all the reason they needed, I suppose.

[runaway_lynx]

Well thats odd there are plenty of people that pass by that are just travelers that are passing by.

[wanderingtora]

Didn't say it made any sense at all. But I've found that gracious saviors rarely make sense in my mind.

[runaway_lynx]

SO you believe you don't deserve help?

[wanderingtora]

It's not about deserving. I've more than learned how to take care of myself, so I don't *need* help. And when they try it just pisses me off instead of making me feel any gratitude.

[runaway_lynx]

Well they don't know that you can take care of yourself just fine. But I understand.

[wanderingtora]

I think taking one look at me is enough to tell anyone that I'm not frail and helpless. But then they might've had blacked out rose-tinted glasses on for all I know.

[runaway_lynx]

Maybe, but I wouldn't know you could look like anything~

[wanderingtora]

I'll put it this way...I've been described before as "large enough to fight a grizzly bear and win". Does that sound like someone who needs help?

[runaway_lynx]

That sure says alot. Well I'm rather tall myself, super strong to~

[wanderingtora]

...Could you fight a grizzly bear and win?