Scream And Howl At Something!!!!!!
Ever have days or times when you just want scream or howl at something? I know I do! Normally its the moon, the full moon to be exact. Now lately, my attentions have been divertid, my anger that is to one target. I use to howl at the moon to relieve the tension, that or I would go to Martial Arts class and beat something up. Lately though, I don't know...it's not quite like it use to be. I hear a name and I get thoughts of violence, or I just want to go and let the person have what I think they have coming to them. It is only one person to be exact. But still this one person, comes up in conversation after conversation, over and over again.
I must of counted at least nine or ten times that we (all of the people I conversed with today) have talked about or mentioned this one person. This one whose name I am begining to fear for what I might do to that person.
I never thought of myself as a violent man, but lately what I have been thinking has me wondering. I have to walk away when the person is mentioned for fear of a violent reaction from myself...I fear that I am slowly loosing my self-control over my temper. I believe that it is being drained by the mere mention of this person's name.
I have gone as far as go as to call this person a bitch. Something I thought I never would call a real "woman". And I cought myself saying it. But then again I wasn't the only one who heard me say it. I almost slapped myself.....
Damn I want to hit something....KKKKKKKKKKKKKIIIIIIIIIIICCCCCCCKKKK....SOMETHING would be nice too!
oh well, bye for now
plm
I must of counted at least nine or ten times that we (all of the people I conversed with today) have talked about or mentioned this one person. This one whose name I am begining to fear for what I might do to that person.
I never thought of myself as a violent man, but lately what I have been thinking has me wondering. I have to walk away when the person is mentioned for fear of a violent reaction from myself...I fear that I am slowly loosing my self-control over my temper. I believe that it is being drained by the mere mention of this person's name.
I have gone as far as go as to call this person a bitch. Something I thought I never would call a real "woman". And I cought myself saying it. But then again I wasn't the only one who heard me say it. I almost slapped myself.....
Damn I want to hit something....KKKKKKKKKKKKKIIIIIIIIIIICCCCCCCKKKK....SOMETHING would be nice too!
oh well, bye for now
plm