The weight of worlds

[wanderingharper]

Some mornings I wake as though into a dream. I feel like I am diving deep in the sea and that I can feel many atmospheres of pressure upon me inexorably crushing me. All I can do is lay very still and breathe slowly until the urge to freak out, flail, scream and run away passes.
I love my husband, my children and the opportunity to get my degree is amazing, but sometimes the pressure and the expectations are crushing.