June 14th: Bbbbbbbbbbblllllllllleeeehhhhh
"Okay, I'm watching a kid play jump rope with about 6 glowsticks they connected together, were at a bowling alley, and it's 2:30 in the morning. What the heck is going on?" So yeah, that was my morning. I was just up for 19 hours straight and in that time, played two games of lazer tag, got completely soaked, got an adreline rush from racing go carts at a little after 12 in the morning, bowled three games, got a video of people doing the chicken dance during sed games, and then listened to a bunch of people whine about how my school is so bad and how they hate everyone and everyone hates them, BLAH.
So anyway yeah, that was my youth groups lock in, and my last one since I just can't manage another. Sad since this used to be my favorite event but, as I've mentioned, the youth group is changing and I don't want to change that way.
In other news, sorry for being so sporadic in posting lately. I meant to have that second part of my con report up Thursday, heck I even had over half of it typed, but then my eyes were bothering me too much. Since Wednesday I felt like I had some small irritant in my eye but there was nothing there. This continues for two days, I can't sleep late on Friday for it, my mom pops me into the eye doctor and I got looked at. This was the same doctor who looked at me the last time and he prescribed some drops (he said that my eye looked dry and that could be because I am taking Singular, which is an anti-hestimine) that would make my eyes water more (I think he actually called them steriods) and my eyes haven't bothered me since! Wohoo, still haven't worn my contacts though, sigh, I really haven't worn them a lot lately. Something else that is ironic, I take Singular for my allergies and my mom got a notice in the mail (and this must be a good sized problem if they are mailing these out, I think it came along with the bill from my therapist, still embrassed I had to go to one...) that Singular can cause mood swings and sucidal thoughts. Well, that could explain some. As my sophomore religion teacher put it "Junior year is just full of depressing movies" and after we saw any of those depressing movies this year, I just felt so hopeless, like there was nothing I could do. And so (I swear, I know my mind is weird, I am only recording what I thought) I wondered what my point in living was and why I was using up all these resources that could go to others? So in short, semi-sucidal thoughts. I also blame that on Christian teaching a bit, the idea that you should give everything up for others. But if everyone does that, then everyone has nothing and there is a mountain of stuff that is already in existeance but not in use. I really don't agree with my religion...
Signing off.
So anyway yeah, that was my youth groups lock in, and my last one since I just can't manage another. Sad since this used to be my favorite event but, as I've mentioned, the youth group is changing and I don't want to change that way.
In other news, sorry for being so sporadic in posting lately. I meant to have that second part of my con report up Thursday, heck I even had over half of it typed, but then my eyes were bothering me too much. Since Wednesday I felt like I had some small irritant in my eye but there was nothing there. This continues for two days, I can't sleep late on Friday for it, my mom pops me into the eye doctor and I got looked at. This was the same doctor who looked at me the last time and he prescribed some drops (he said that my eye looked dry and that could be because I am taking Singular, which is an anti-hestimine) that would make my eyes water more (I think he actually called them steriods) and my eyes haven't bothered me since! Wohoo, still haven't worn my contacts though, sigh, I really haven't worn them a lot lately. Something else that is ironic, I take Singular for my allergies and my mom got a notice in the mail (and this must be a good sized problem if they are mailing these out, I think it came along with the bill from my therapist, still embrassed I had to go to one...) that Singular can cause mood swings and sucidal thoughts. Well, that could explain some. As my sophomore religion teacher put it "Junior year is just full of depressing movies" and after we saw any of those depressing movies this year, I just felt so hopeless, like there was nothing I could do. And so (I swear, I know my mind is weird, I am only recording what I thought) I wondered what my point in living was and why I was using up all these resources that could go to others? So in short, semi-sucidal thoughts. I also blame that on Christian teaching a bit, the idea that you should give everything up for others. But if everyone does that, then everyone has nothing and there is a mountain of stuff that is already in existeance but not in use. I really don't agree with my religion...
Signing off.