some thoughts...
wow. it seems i can never keep up with a journal. Life takes me and i go. with the things i do, i follow and so life travels.
I'm lonely for nerds. I wish to have many friends who don't do drugs and think, alot! But those who don't care that i don't view drugs as evil. I can't do them cause i'm on probation and can be tested but i would smoke pot if i could. It doesn't make me loaded, i'm adventurous and lively and fun. Although i used it to take my depression and give me freedom and now that i'm clean i see that. Not only that but i've illegally bought kolonipin, the drug i'm prescribed,.... well.... it does help me. It's just like valume i think that's how it's spelt. Well, they help the depression, and i think once i start making decent money, i'll start buying them. They make me kinda numb, but if i cut the pills and don't take full perscription, i find it helps!!!
My mood swings are cause life sucks... Reciently i herd of a guy IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD that left his baby in the car and it died... i think on all of this. i live life. a bird on a branch in a nature park or a flower on the side of a rode... so few see the beauty. so few see the glory of the world. That's what religion is, it's this beautiful world we have. And so many of us are obsessed with posesstions, we miss the glory of a sunrise, or the birth of life, human or animal. We seem to get caught with soceity and miss the beauty of life. I see it all and i don't know why, but i love it all. So many have so mych hate, do mych. . .
I feel my depression fading, i see my own fault, and now i don't want it. I want change and only i can make that change. why not? it's my life and i have to do with it what i choose.
EVERYONE MUST REMEMBER IT'S YOUR LIFE... YOUR LIFE....
SOON ONCE YOU'RE LEGAL FOR ANYONE UNDERAGE THAT READS THIS IT'S YOUR LIFE!...
i need to realize that it's my life. depression or not, it's mine.
i lost my most Precious Love.
i lost Her.
i must not hate and have pain for a world of sin.
i must love it for what it can give...
my most Precious Love.
That which my saddness lost... I must strive to care so nothing like that ever happens again. I must care for what i appriciate, not what i dislike. I need to try, i need to write these words over and over again and remember i need to care! I need to care! I NEED TO CARE!!!
sidney Fox
i listen in the silence and hear things. Voices not my own. Many don't understand, many thing i'm mad. I see the world for what She is, everything and anything. We all hear a voice inside us, it's your choice to do what's right and what's wrong...
I'm lonely for nerds. I wish to have many friends who don't do drugs and think, alot! But those who don't care that i don't view drugs as evil. I can't do them cause i'm on probation and can be tested but i would smoke pot if i could. It doesn't make me loaded, i'm adventurous and lively and fun. Although i used it to take my depression and give me freedom and now that i'm clean i see that. Not only that but i've illegally bought kolonipin, the drug i'm prescribed,.... well.... it does help me. It's just like valume i think that's how it's spelt. Well, they help the depression, and i think once i start making decent money, i'll start buying them. They make me kinda numb, but if i cut the pills and don't take full perscription, i find it helps!!!
My mood swings are cause life sucks... Reciently i herd of a guy IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD that left his baby in the car and it died... i think on all of this. i live life. a bird on a branch in a nature park or a flower on the side of a rode... so few see the beauty. so few see the glory of the world. That's what religion is, it's this beautiful world we have. And so many of us are obsessed with posesstions, we miss the glory of a sunrise, or the birth of life, human or animal. We seem to get caught with soceity and miss the beauty of life. I see it all and i don't know why, but i love it all. So many have so mych hate, do mych. . .
I feel my depression fading, i see my own fault, and now i don't want it. I want change and only i can make that change. why not? it's my life and i have to do with it what i choose.
EVERYONE MUST REMEMBER IT'S YOUR LIFE... YOUR LIFE....
SOON ONCE YOU'RE LEGAL FOR ANYONE UNDERAGE THAT READS THIS IT'S YOUR LIFE!...
i need to realize that it's my life. depression or not, it's mine.
i lost my most Precious Love.
i lost Her.
i must not hate and have pain for a world of sin.
i must love it for what it can give...
my most Precious Love.
That which my saddness lost... I must strive to care so nothing like that ever happens again. I must care for what i appriciate, not what i dislike. I need to try, i need to write these words over and over again and remember i need to care! I need to care! I NEED TO CARE!!!
sidney Fox
i listen in the silence and hear things. Voices not my own. Many don't understand, many thing i'm mad. I see the world for what She is, everything and anything. We all hear a voice inside us, it's your choice to do what's right and what's wrong...