The boys
For those of you that know about what happened last Sunday the funeral is at 1pm today. If I post about it at all it'll be a private post.
So much bad crap going on all of a sudden this week. First there's sunday, which I'm not gonna talk about. Then there's me being overly depressed, overly in need of attention and support and feeling overly neglected which in turn caused me to be overly stupid and break it off with David. Now David doesn't even want to talk to me.. I've been so depressed and upset from everything combined over this past week that I'm about ready to just disappear. I can't sleep and I barely have eaten anything.. I'm just stuck in a downward spiral that seems to have no bottom. The part of me that allowed me to talk myself into breaking things off with David keeps trying to make me angry at him.. but I know that's wrong. I mean he didn't know that I needed him to talk to as bad as I did.. I never had a chance to tell him about the Boys. I haven't really talked to anyone about them. It hurts too much. All I can do as far as David is concerned is wait... I figure it took him a week to respond to my initial admission.. perhaps it'll take that long for this as well...
So much bad crap going on all of a sudden this week. First there's sunday, which I'm not gonna talk about. Then there's me being overly depressed, overly in need of attention and support and feeling overly neglected which in turn caused me to be overly stupid and break it off with David. Now David doesn't even want to talk to me.. I've been so depressed and upset from everything combined over this past week that I'm about ready to just disappear. I can't sleep and I barely have eaten anything.. I'm just stuck in a downward spiral that seems to have no bottom. The part of me that allowed me to talk myself into breaking things off with David keeps trying to make me angry at him.. but I know that's wrong. I mean he didn't know that I needed him to talk to as bad as I did.. I never had a chance to tell him about the Boys. I haven't really talked to anyone about them. It hurts too much. All I can do as far as David is concerned is wait... I figure it took him a week to respond to my initial admission.. perhaps it'll take that long for this as well...