Nov 16, 2011 18:18
Slept with my ex this morning; I guess we were both looking for a little bit of comfort in trying times.
I'm still firm in my resolve and motivating myself to do more than just maintain my routine. I'm pushing myself outside of my comfort zone and pursuing the things that still come easily to me. Writing is still a huge priority for me, so i'm deciding whether to get some new hardware or a game to review.
I would really like to get a Sony Wireless headset so I can improve my game and block out everything else.
My wedding vows are very important to me, but I am completely beset upon by a confusing maelstrom of emotions. I lack the capacity to simply be aloof now that I've acknowledged the power and scope of my emotional response.
Every fiber in my being wants me to run, but Sarah wants me in her life. The anxious part of me is still cloak and daggers; i'm preparing, but hopeful.
So grim.
I've been attempting to write smut, but I find myself oddly blocked.