Things going on....
Hey all....been awhile, and its been a very long month...lots of things went on.
well cuz of all the stress i was going through, i had a small anxiety attack about 3 weeks ago. Never had one of those before in my life...it was very strange. Took some time off, and wasnt able to take the meds i was given for that, since it effected my driving for work so i went without and tried to continue through my shit. Dr had me take some time off, and i sooo needed it. But it wasnt enough, so i took a week off after a few days of coming back, i left again...
One of the main reasons i stressed out was from the place i was in. I hated the place...it sucked and my landlord was a true slumlord. So for the past month i tried to find a place to live with the kids and i, and kept getting denied for either poor credit, or too many pets or whatever else they could come up with, so as i was coming to the ending of my time there..i was rambling around trying to find shelter, the state couldnt help me cuz i made to much money(hahahahaha) or i wasnt actually homeless yet. And i knew from previous riders, that once you become homeless, its very hard to get another place WHILE your homeless...but thanks to a friend i work with, I got to talk to her landlord and he got me a place. A temporary place. a 2 bedroom trailer, till he gets a 3 bedroom back from the courts...so im in a transitional place. But can i tell you, even though its about the same, i feel sooooo much better!!! im sleeping better, and knowing this guy takes care of his places(even thou its not the ritz...still) and the most important thing is that im not living next to a woman whos bf, is a convicted pedifile. (released) i never let the kids out, and here they get out and have new friends..its getting better here...im still living in boxes, but i dont mind. and most importantly...my kids are safe!!!
but through all this chaos, and stress i was still chatting with guys , and one in perticular was very attetive to me during my hell, and we got to get closer....so close that during my week off he came over and spent the day with me, when the kids were in school. And we fucked all day long, he fucked my brains out!!! over and over again...and i went down on him continuouly...which he enjoyed as well, we played with each other asses, licking and fingering, fucking in all types of positions, and he pounded on me so much one time , he got me to bleed a bit..which i didnt mind...LOL it was a fuck i defintily needed!!! It was very good...he still texts me and calls me, but not as often...dont think much will come of him. Which is a shame, cuz hes a very decent man, but im a realist...and such is my life...they come and go...ill find my true dark and fun man one day..
Other than that all is still pretty much the same...working 2 jobs still, getting ready for Halloween, and making sure the kids do their homework.
Oh!!! I did lose 5 more pounds, which makes a total of 107 lbs gone!!! gonna try and find a decent execise class for the winter months, maybe a dance class of some sorts...not sure, depends on the cost. But im getting better everyday..and that is still changing as well. enjoy all!!! swak