.
As much as I love my friends back home, Florida is not where I want to be. Not now, not ever.
I'm actually really sad that I'm leaving NYC for 2 1/2 weeks. I feel like this place is where I should live, always.
I'm not sure how to put this in words, let alone a stupid online journal.
But, music is really the only true happiness and love I have in my life. And no one else can experience the same feeling i get when I listen to Bruckner 7th, or even the infamous Beethoven 9th except for my friends I created here.
Before coming to MSM, I never truly felt like being a musician was the right path for me. It wasn't until James sat me down and made me analyze so many pieces, made me listen to so many symphonies and concertos, and made me dictate the kodaly hungarian psalm that I realized I fucking love what I do. I get to actually play this beautiful music and make someone else in the world feel the same way I do. Nothing can make me cry harder than listening to that.
Back home, I don't have anyone to drink, relax, and listen to classical music with.
I've never felt so alone going home.
this is such a stupid fucking entry.
I'm a music faggot.
fuck.
I'm actually really sad that I'm leaving NYC for 2 1/2 weeks. I feel like this place is where I should live, always.
I'm not sure how to put this in words, let alone a stupid online journal.
But, music is really the only true happiness and love I have in my life. And no one else can experience the same feeling i get when I listen to Bruckner 7th, or even the infamous Beethoven 9th except for my friends I created here.
Before coming to MSM, I never truly felt like being a musician was the right path for me. It wasn't until James sat me down and made me analyze so many pieces, made me listen to so many symphonies and concertos, and made me dictate the kodaly hungarian psalm that I realized I fucking love what I do. I get to actually play this beautiful music and make someone else in the world feel the same way I do. Nothing can make me cry harder than listening to that.
Back home, I don't have anyone to drink, relax, and listen to classical music with.
I've never felt so alone going home.
this is such a stupid fucking entry.
I'm a music faggot.
fuck.