Feeling pretty lonely..
for some reason i feel so freaking lonely...i should be looking to God for fullness..but i keep looking to boys for love...but finding it very hard. i just want someone to find interest in me...someone that can hold me, and look into my eyes, just someone to make me feel important...like im worth something...someone to call me and give me chills at every touch...someone who likes me, the Dee inside my head and heart. Someone who shares christianity with me and also wants to stay pure...just someone. That someone should be God..but im loosing faith because i can't see him in human form..but that shuldn't be the case...and i don't know how to change my feelings...i just want to know that love is real...and true, and that it's not just a made up magic that's seen in movies..because i don't know love...i can't believe in it....and because i don't believe in it..i cant' be loved. i hate this...