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well. today i feel fat--er than usuall. i had the usually cottage cheese and carrots at lunch today..andd then i added a bag of baked potato chips...140cals..yeahhh thats prolly why i feel fat. oh well. im under 300cals so i guess its okay...kinda. hmm im probably gonna work out tonight. havent done anything for like a week, soooo yeah. wow im soo tired of everything. honestly i don't believe there is any reason to eat other than survival. im really tired of people messing with me. like it used to be fun and i used to go along with it cuz they(the boys) were funny and stuff. but now i feel kinda just disrespected, seriously. but oh well...what can ya do..? and wow i dont know. im gonna rant about boys for a while. if you don't wanna hear about them stop reading now =].
I MISS HIM SOO MUCH!!! okay im just gonna call him C. anyways i havent seen, texted, im-ed, called, or talked to C at all! for like 2 weeks!! yeah and he hasn't made any effort to get a hold of me sooooo yeah..but most of me thinks that he avoids me alittle because he doesnt want to start liking me again cuz it will mess everything up again. but i wonder if he's still txting her and flirting still...cuz if so thats really not fair at all. seriously. nothing is. i talked to him for the 1st time in a while last night. and he acted all flirty and i was like hmmm. and yeah. i really don't know but i can't stop freaking THINKING ABOUT HIM. seriously i've tryed sooo hard. and its not like we've dated or kissed or anything special. in reality we were only good friends that talked about maybe having some feeling for ea. other. and you would think that you'd be able to just get over that cuz there was like zero attachment you know, it was nothin..but i just can't... man..i hate it.
I MISS HIM SOO MUCH!!! okay im just gonna call him C. anyways i havent seen, texted, im-ed, called, or talked to C at all! for like 2 weeks!! yeah and he hasn't made any effort to get a hold of me sooooo yeah..but most of me thinks that he avoids me alittle because he doesnt want to start liking me again cuz it will mess everything up again. but i wonder if he's still txting her and flirting still...cuz if so thats really not fair at all. seriously. nothing is. i talked to him for the 1st time in a while last night. and he acted all flirty and i was like hmmm. and yeah. i really don't know but i can't stop freaking THINKING ABOUT HIM. seriously i've tryed sooo hard. and its not like we've dated or kissed or anything special. in reality we were only good friends that talked about maybe having some feeling for ea. other. and you would think that you'd be able to just get over that cuz there was like zero attachment you know, it was nothin..but i just can't... man..i hate it.