flash to the near past
yo yo yo
ohmannn is mom making the biggest mistake she can make, she thinks im just going to roll
over and give in...she doesnt know me at all. im going to fight to the bitter end...
i WONT GIVE IN...not to her, she was the one who started the game by lying about when id be able to drive again
then she started to lose control..slowly at first, but then it accelerated when she made decisions based on
control..i wont be told what to do and where to be by HER shes not worth my respect. in fact...not many people on this damn planet
is worth it...
ah yes, and just so you readers know, im typing this in place of my writtin journal
where ive dumped my most personal thoughts...sombody in my family wiill read that after i commit suicide
or die by some freak accident, or just...dissapear
alot has happenend since ive writtin, as a matter of fact, i cant remember the circumstance in which i wrote
last.
being that information writtin is information that is traceable in interceptible, i cant divulge my
findings, or what has happened that has been caused by me, either indirectly, or directly
but what i can state is in my current state of mind..rather depressed
i am going into my senior year, and i cant find a girl that is like me, everyone around here is
just to calm, i need a crazy chick thats up for anything..i suppose it wouldnt hurt to tell a story.
a while back ( i cant say how far )
i was driving down a road with my closest possie members in tow
as a motercyle flies ahead of us, ive never lost in a drag race, stick or not
so i wasnt about to lose against a motercyle ( little did i know )
that motercycles have supperior acceleration
immediatly my hand goes to the stick, as i prepare to downshit and floor it
everyone starts getting hyped up, out of 5 people in the car, only one girl
urged me on....this saddenend me more than i could express, but i had to keep up with the tension in the car
so i raced that damn motercylce with that one girl urging me on.
is this what my prospecting life is going to be?!
will i find only that most crazy chicks to go out with?
and will those kinds of girls always be destined to already have a bf?!
the girl i currently fell, and am still falling for is my dream girl
i met her at my friends birthday party, she is everything...its incredible
so we spend the night getting to know each other, just her and me
we were nearly cuddling out on the road where my couz and i were lounging in the middle of the road
with like six good lookin girls, we were all just lumped together in one big mass of arms and legs
i was in a dream, an awesome chick laying against me, my head resting on another chicks stomach
so the party comes to an end when my dad comes comes to pick up me and my couz ( naturaly )
so we go to the car as my couz reminds me that we havnt givin our respects to the birthday girl
so we run back in as fast as we can go...and i run into that girl..along with the rest of the crew
so we naturally were obligated to talk an stuff, so i pull that girl away from the crowd...pulll her close
and ask if she would go out with me...it was the most perfect moment, the rest of the group was looking at us
wondering what was happening, and were in our own little world..just her and me
so i pop the question, and she saayyysss......
shes got a boyfriend
BUT NOT TO WORRY.....SHE LIKES ME AS A FRIEND!!!!
THANK GOD!!!!
i was worried about that one ( dripping with sarcasm )
my heart shattered, i knew this girl less than 5 hours, and i fell hard
ill tell you this has never happened before in my life, ive only been able to seriously go out with
only the people that i fall HARD for...and my taste in girls is VEERRYY picky, so in essence, ive only
nocked boots with like 3 girls up to this point in highschool
what luck, huh?
ive always had bad luck with girls, but this is icing on the cake
LESS THAN 5 HOURS!!
the previous girls, its taken months, even years to fall for and forget
...thus is the curse of the intellectual...
the party that i threw spread all around lake forest, deerfield, libertyville, ive heard rumours that my
homes from zion showed
it was incredible, now, all of lakeforest knows me, and my circle of friends has exploded, quite literaly
i have a klan of people i hang with on a regular basis and its still expanding at an exponential rate
ive never felt more free before in my life..in terms of the numbers of people who look toward me to plan
their escapes, and organize their ideas..i have truly turned into a
leader:-D
so the lake forest day carnival comes up, my groupies all show up, of course, and we partay
like no tommoro, i cant remember how much fun ive had with people that ive known to love to be around
my life is eploding and i am changing into the mans man, and the womens man, all at once
ive got it all
despite the problems at home, i will NEVER let ANYONE get in the way of my progress
NOBODY, and i mean NOBODY will stop my social growth..i cant stress that enough, this is my goal
...in ultimatum... ive found myself
now to find a single girl that is crazy and as smart as i am..and
certainly as crazy as i am
now for the robert problem, it seems that his growth...just hasnt grown, hes going into his senior year
and i still am the only person who can stand to be around him, whenever, whereever. i belive that is mostly because i grew
up with him at st. marys
so it t'woud seem that hes being left in the dust, because our goals are different, the sad thing is, that i have grown
beyond him...he hasnt grown beyond me, you could say i live in a higher plane of existence now
ever since that party, where my social life exploded, i have been wondering what is so different about us...
there clearly is a solid difference between us, but it is just incomprehensible from a first person point of view
because weve grown together, our personalities have intertwined
just today ive had an epiphany
just as i was about to go biking with my friends, robert calls and asks if i wanted to grab a pizza and a movie and chill in
his basement for the night, jus us two!!
!this is it!
i cant stand the feeling of being couped up in his basement, while so much is happening outside his walls..
i just cant do it anymore, i need to be outside, having the time of my life, with my people, i need
the sunlight on my face and a girl by my side.
i cant accomplish this with robert ive decided
he wants solitude...ive been the outcast for to long with him...im opening up to the world in a way ive
never done before, and i just cant go back
so man, im not gonna give up on this chick, shes gonna be mine, and ive heard rumours that
the warrens girl is jealous cause the girls dont want warren any more...they want me :-D
and i also hear that, that girl also has somthin for me, however big it is, its a start
so im going to keep chippin away, eventually she will be MINE!
i wrote this awhile ago...a few things ev changed...firstly
i find out that the chick i liked is goin out with some guy
from china..its all good, im just about over er'
i suppose ill summarize my summer..which i must say has been quite
more eventfull than last summer
LIST:
1-crashed the car..and got off easy
2-had a friggin huge party 60-80 people, 2 bands, an a hella good time
3-got caught for curfew, drivin to the station..and im still
waitin for the court date
4-DIDNT GET LAID!!:-(
5-founded my own possie
6-started a klan...like vive la resistance...but a bit smaller
7-went to london...then saw 28days later, the day i got back..quite
freaky
i think thats it...ive made a few journals throughout the years,
when i get back to AZ, ill dig them up...their from like 8th grade
an sophmore year, an all that good stuff
this summs up ma first LJ entry...good times man\
ohyes...ive manages to make a 4,000 word email
it took me 8 hours to write, but it goes over everything in more detail
email me, an ill reply with it
ohmannn is mom making the biggest mistake she can make, she thinks im just going to roll
over and give in...she doesnt know me at all. im going to fight to the bitter end...
i WONT GIVE IN...not to her, she was the one who started the game by lying about when id be able to drive again
then she started to lose control..slowly at first, but then it accelerated when she made decisions based on
control..i wont be told what to do and where to be by HER shes not worth my respect. in fact...not many people on this damn planet
is worth it...
ah yes, and just so you readers know, im typing this in place of my writtin journal
where ive dumped my most personal thoughts...sombody in my family wiill read that after i commit suicide
or die by some freak accident, or just...dissapear
alot has happenend since ive writtin, as a matter of fact, i cant remember the circumstance in which i wrote
last.
being that information writtin is information that is traceable in interceptible, i cant divulge my
findings, or what has happened that has been caused by me, either indirectly, or directly
but what i can state is in my current state of mind..rather depressed
i am going into my senior year, and i cant find a girl that is like me, everyone around here is
just to calm, i need a crazy chick thats up for anything..i suppose it wouldnt hurt to tell a story.
a while back ( i cant say how far )
i was driving down a road with my closest possie members in tow
as a motercyle flies ahead of us, ive never lost in a drag race, stick or not
so i wasnt about to lose against a motercyle ( little did i know )
that motercycles have supperior acceleration
immediatly my hand goes to the stick, as i prepare to downshit and floor it
everyone starts getting hyped up, out of 5 people in the car, only one girl
urged me on....this saddenend me more than i could express, but i had to keep up with the tension in the car
so i raced that damn motercylce with that one girl urging me on.
is this what my prospecting life is going to be?!
will i find only that most crazy chicks to go out with?
and will those kinds of girls always be destined to already have a bf?!
the girl i currently fell, and am still falling for is my dream girl
i met her at my friends birthday party, she is everything...its incredible
so we spend the night getting to know each other, just her and me
we were nearly cuddling out on the road where my couz and i were lounging in the middle of the road
with like six good lookin girls, we were all just lumped together in one big mass of arms and legs
i was in a dream, an awesome chick laying against me, my head resting on another chicks stomach
so the party comes to an end when my dad comes comes to pick up me and my couz ( naturaly )
so we go to the car as my couz reminds me that we havnt givin our respects to the birthday girl
so we run back in as fast as we can go...and i run into that girl..along with the rest of the crew
so we naturally were obligated to talk an stuff, so i pull that girl away from the crowd...pulll her close
and ask if she would go out with me...it was the most perfect moment, the rest of the group was looking at us
wondering what was happening, and were in our own little world..just her and me
so i pop the question, and she saayyysss......
shes got a boyfriend
BUT NOT TO WORRY.....SHE LIKES ME AS A FRIEND!!!!
THANK GOD!!!!
i was worried about that one ( dripping with sarcasm )
my heart shattered, i knew this girl less than 5 hours, and i fell hard
ill tell you this has never happened before in my life, ive only been able to seriously go out with
only the people that i fall HARD for...and my taste in girls is VEERRYY picky, so in essence, ive only
nocked boots with like 3 girls up to this point in highschool
what luck, huh?
ive always had bad luck with girls, but this is icing on the cake
LESS THAN 5 HOURS!!
the previous girls, its taken months, even years to fall for and forget
...thus is the curse of the intellectual...
the party that i threw spread all around lake forest, deerfield, libertyville, ive heard rumours that my
homes from zion showed
it was incredible, now, all of lakeforest knows me, and my circle of friends has exploded, quite literaly
i have a klan of people i hang with on a regular basis and its still expanding at an exponential rate
ive never felt more free before in my life..in terms of the numbers of people who look toward me to plan
their escapes, and organize their ideas..i have truly turned into a
leader:-D
so the lake forest day carnival comes up, my groupies all show up, of course, and we partay
like no tommoro, i cant remember how much fun ive had with people that ive known to love to be around
my life is eploding and i am changing into the mans man, and the womens man, all at once
ive got it all
despite the problems at home, i will NEVER let ANYONE get in the way of my progress
NOBODY, and i mean NOBODY will stop my social growth..i cant stress that enough, this is my goal
...in ultimatum... ive found myself
now to find a single girl that is crazy and as smart as i am..and
certainly as crazy as i am
now for the robert problem, it seems that his growth...just hasnt grown, hes going into his senior year
and i still am the only person who can stand to be around him, whenever, whereever. i belive that is mostly because i grew
up with him at st. marys
so it t'woud seem that hes being left in the dust, because our goals are different, the sad thing is, that i have grown
beyond him...he hasnt grown beyond me, you could say i live in a higher plane of existence now
ever since that party, where my social life exploded, i have been wondering what is so different about us...
there clearly is a solid difference between us, but it is just incomprehensible from a first person point of view
because weve grown together, our personalities have intertwined
just today ive had an epiphany
just as i was about to go biking with my friends, robert calls and asks if i wanted to grab a pizza and a movie and chill in
his basement for the night, jus us two!!
!this is it!
i cant stand the feeling of being couped up in his basement, while so much is happening outside his walls..
i just cant do it anymore, i need to be outside, having the time of my life, with my people, i need
the sunlight on my face and a girl by my side.
i cant accomplish this with robert ive decided
he wants solitude...ive been the outcast for to long with him...im opening up to the world in a way ive
never done before, and i just cant go back
so man, im not gonna give up on this chick, shes gonna be mine, and ive heard rumours that
the warrens girl is jealous cause the girls dont want warren any more...they want me :-D
and i also hear that, that girl also has somthin for me, however big it is, its a start
so im going to keep chippin away, eventually she will be MINE!
i wrote this awhile ago...a few things ev changed...firstly
i find out that the chick i liked is goin out with some guy
from china..its all good, im just about over er'
i suppose ill summarize my summer..which i must say has been quite
more eventfull than last summer
LIST:
1-crashed the car..and got off easy
2-had a friggin huge party 60-80 people, 2 bands, an a hella good time
3-got caught for curfew, drivin to the station..and im still
waitin for the court date
4-DIDNT GET LAID!!:-(
5-founded my own possie
6-started a klan...like vive la resistance...but a bit smaller
7-went to london...then saw 28days later, the day i got back..quite
freaky
i think thats it...ive made a few journals throughout the years,
when i get back to AZ, ill dig them up...their from like 8th grade
an sophmore year, an all that good stuff
this summs up ma first LJ entry...good times man\
ohyes...ive manages to make a 4,000 word email
it took me 8 hours to write, but it goes over everything in more detail
email me, an ill reply with it