Something missing, left behind. searching circles everytime i try....
I really dont know what to say about today. it was an ok day i suppose. i think i get internet access during comp science soon. i hope so.. im gettin really sick of solitare and freakin pin-ball is soooooooo terrible i'd rather die than play that game. uumm nothing much really happened today.. i think i made denise aggitated a little bit ( i didn't mean too) umm.... Each day i grow farther and farther away from what i called sanity. maybe i am crazy, but i feel lost.... about everything... except one thing. I dont really know what to expect out of any of my old friends... im growing to know all the new ones ..... i have changed.... Yugi beat pegasus yesterday morning.... ash cought caterpie last night.... i got a talk about how i am "mean" to my sister when my parents aren't around....Which in my opinion i dont think i am. i mean seriously....... how long do i have to put up with someone who has no rationality or compassion for anyone but themselves? it's a pain in the rear.... and if you have a younger sibbling like mine... i am sorry. because living wit hsomeone who hates me and completely thinks i am the complete opposite of what i really am.. isn't a good thing to do. apparently she thinks i am this chick magnet that is out to get into everyone's pants and i have no real morals. HELLO! REALITY CHECK! Im not that type of person. i am Madly in love with one girl, and i am not in that relationship to get into her pants at all. she is the most wonderful person in the world, and i absolutely love being around her. other than that... percussion ensomble was stupid.. we didn't do anything at all.. and basically wasted about 35 minutes for nothing. next week we start.. so that should be good. Charlie's show is saterday at cave 9 and im not sure if i can go or not.. i think she's mad at me for that. ummm apparently underOATH is playing friday.... i didn't know that.. i might go to that as well. MAYBE ummm i have been playing tactics advance alot lately. i think im being tested. i need to fix something i do wrong. ummm Old habits die hard. dexter is on.. im lonely at the moment. this is getting stupid now -end transmission-