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[wammocablamo]

i hate how.. eventho you can make someone's day so amazingly better after they feel bad. they dont even realize how they make you feel bad. i mean, not neccasarrily doing it on perpuse or anything.. but i guess they dont really know they are doing it. and if you tell them they are.. they'll feel bad again, and you dont want to make them feel bad again, because you just spent hte last 2 hours makeing them feel better. so i suppose i should just feel bad secretly and let it blow over without them knowing.. instead of makeing them feel bad all over again.But if i said i felt bad because of it, they would think im jealous.. and i have no reason at all to be jealous. but it would seem like that. It's a setup ... im bound to feel bad for helping someone. If i told them why i felt bad after they feel better.. i'd feel bad for makeing them feel bad. but if i dont tell them.. i'll feel bad and they wont ever know.... which i guess is better.. because what you dont know, wont hurt you. This post is pointless to everyone. except me. because i am the only person that knows what im talking about. Jaser would understand too.... maybe... maybe not.. who knows..

i miss you...

DisorderRatingParanoid:Very HighSchizoid:Very HighSchizotypal:HighAntisocial:ModerateBorderline:LowHistrionic:LowNarcissistic:ModerateAvoidant:HighDependent:ModerateObsessive-Compulsive:Moderate
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