Things are just so hard sometimes
So, right now I am sitting in the library on the computer because I have nothing else better to do for the hour in between my classes. Usually I would talk to Krysta and we would have lunch but not today. I can't talk to her for a little while due to recruitment. I hate that. I understand that you are not allowed to talk to people that are going through recruitment because it looks like you are promising them a bid or whatnot but I am friends with her. I see her everyday and we hang out all the time. This is so hard for me to do. I don't understand how people can do this all the time. It has been two days and I am already falling apart. I can barely last two days, how am I going to last for two weeks?? This is so rough. Plus, I feel like I am totally swamped with things to do and I don't know what is going on with that boy of mine. I feel kind of upset because he has been withholding information from me for a little while. I don't know if he didn't tell me this because he didn't want to make me upset or he just didn't want me to yell at him. Not that I would have yelled at him, I just would have pointed out what should be happening. I just wish that he would have told me. I don't like when he keeps things from me and it makes me feel like he has been lying to me. I care about him so much and it hurts when something like that happens. I don't know how to explain it. It is not that I feel like he betrayed me but I wish that he would have told me. I will just live with it. I understand sometimes that we don't always like to share what is going on, as long as he finally does end up telling me. I guess that is alright. Yet again, another journal entry that makes no sense. Sorry that it is like this again, I just had to get some things out.