not homework
That's what this is. This is not homework. The same might be said of a lot of things.
"pull the chord from the phone, I am dining alone tonight"
I'm just procrastinating. I thought I might calm my thoughts, focus on something. I find my mind a mess, a turbid sea of contradictory hopes and plans.
"these are my friends, this is how they have been for always"
I was walking down the street to stop by my apartment and pick up a book when I stopped for perhaps the first time and thought about how the view isn't changing anymore. I'm not growing anymore. This is how things will look more or less from now on.
I'm not growing up anymore. Not in terms of stature, or really general physical development. I guess it was this process I took for granted, that every day I would wake up a slightly more developed person. I never really thought that one day I'd wake up, and I'd be there. At the brink of trying to live some semblance of an adult life. I'm not ready for this.
"then it passes me by and I think of someone else instead"
I think I need to start listening to some different music, where the lyrics that jump out at me aren't quite so much of a downer.
"I'm still the optimist though it is hard when all you want to be is in a dream."
"pull the chord from the phone, I am dining alone tonight"
I'm just procrastinating. I thought I might calm my thoughts, focus on something. I find my mind a mess, a turbid sea of contradictory hopes and plans.
"these are my friends, this is how they have been for always"
I was walking down the street to stop by my apartment and pick up a book when I stopped for perhaps the first time and thought about how the view isn't changing anymore. I'm not growing anymore. This is how things will look more or less from now on.
I'm not growing up anymore. Not in terms of stature, or really general physical development. I guess it was this process I took for granted, that every day I would wake up a slightly more developed person. I never really thought that one day I'd wake up, and I'd be there. At the brink of trying to live some semblance of an adult life. I'm not ready for this.
"then it passes me by and I think of someone else instead"
I think I need to start listening to some different music, where the lyrics that jump out at me aren't quite so much of a downer.
"I'm still the optimist though it is hard when all you want to be is in a dream."