Anxiety and Confusion.
It makes me laugh how there are things about the people that I love the most that I don't know. It seems like they're hiding things from me and that makes me want to rip their heart out and step on it with some cowboy's muddy boot. Of course, that is completely ridiculous and near impossible so I will just let it continue to eat away at me and I'll try and pretend like I didn't figure things out on my own.
I have a question; is with holding information the same as lying? Especially if the information is something that you know will upset the one you're not telling that is why you're playing secret games? If it isn't the same, why am I so angry right now? Why do I hate her and not trust him?
I laugh at myself for the things I do and for the things I think because I know that I could easily call him and ask him what happened but then he'd be confused as to how I found out and then I'd have to admit to being crazy and I don't want him to know that little fact about me. I should just ask him, I know I should. But, I don't have any claims on him. He's just my friend so why is this whole thing making me crazy? I'm psycho, that's why. I'm a crazy girl...I'm crazy. I never thought I was that kind of girl until now. I am definitely the kind of girl that sneaks around and that obsesses. I'm crazy.
Despite everything I just said, today was a good day. I really just needed to vent. I needed to think things through and figure out what to do. I still don't know...I don't usually plan or scheme. I'm not that kind of girl.
I can ask him anything. I know that. I can say anything to him. He'll understand because he's amazing. What that girl didn't see in him is beyond me, she had everything and now I hope she's killing herself for letting him go because he's incredible. INCREDIBLE!
I have a question; is with holding information the same as lying? Especially if the information is something that you know will upset the one you're not telling that is why you're playing secret games? If it isn't the same, why am I so angry right now? Why do I hate her and not trust him?
I laugh at myself for the things I do and for the things I think because I know that I could easily call him and ask him what happened but then he'd be confused as to how I found out and then I'd have to admit to being crazy and I don't want him to know that little fact about me. I should just ask him, I know I should. But, I don't have any claims on him. He's just my friend so why is this whole thing making me crazy? I'm psycho, that's why. I'm a crazy girl...I'm crazy. I never thought I was that kind of girl until now. I am definitely the kind of girl that sneaks around and that obsesses. I'm crazy.
Despite everything I just said, today was a good day. I really just needed to vent. I needed to think things through and figure out what to do. I still don't know...I don't usually plan or scheme. I'm not that kind of girl.
I can ask him anything. I know that. I can say anything to him. He'll understand because he's amazing. What that girl didn't see in him is beyond me, she had everything and now I hope she's killing herself for letting him go because he's incredible. INCREDIBLE!