Oct 29, 2007 11:45
This year has been a search for divinity, reality and direction. And I have finally found all three, and it was so simple. But I guess it's what they all say.
Through drug [ab]use, and a loss of realty I now know what is real, and what I see as fake/superficial.
Through oppression, and assholes undermining my every opinion I've found divinity to be simply piece of mind that evolves over time into the whole mind being at peace.
And direction, at this stage is, essentially accepting that I NEED piece of mind, and that I need REALITY if I am to be truly happy, and that the only way to do so is to:
Think for myself
Accept myself
Quit smoking
Cut down the pot
Reflect
Communicate.
I have learnt more this year than any other year, yet I have achieved almost nothing. And the scariest part is that I will forget all that I have learnt tomorrow, and the next day untill i choose to accept.
And this acceptance should be the easiest part, but I've made it hard because of stupid tricks I've played on myself by lying, repressing emotions and living with a high level of hypocrytical thought.
Interpol man.