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Monday.
I did something for myself today. Instead of always considering someone else and letting myself suffer just so I wouldn't hurt them...I did something for myself. I'm so proud of finallly being able to do this. I feel so relieved and free. I feel guilty too and I really hope I didn't hurt anyone or ruin anything but it was so important that I did this. If things are ruined I will hurt and miss him so much and probably regret this a lot...but I had to do it.
I'm being cryptic again. I'm sorry. This is just so hard. As relieved as I feel, I also feel guilty and hurt and it's hard to think around those emotions and say something coherent.
I hope everyone is doing better than me, haha, and I love you all.
Dont' be surprised if you don't hear from me in awhile, but also don't be surprised if I end up pouring my heart and soul out into this thing. I could go either way.
Goodbye for now.