Mar 17, 2005 22:49
it's been on my mind lately that life, just being in life in general, is truly wonderful....truly wonderful in the deeper sense of appreciating your breath, or how you walk or really feeling connected with the world.... all of the time, in the constant now...it's just a matter of wheter we can see through to it or not...
i think i've been seeing to it
what's happened has been pretty normal on the whole...school, friends, etc....but i've been taking it all in with an equal amount of attention to what's going on...
i've just been making a conscious effort to be wholeheartedly mindful...
loving a friend
being in the constant now
seeing the sunshine fall down as if it were the first time
taking things slow
i realize more and more...how, in a sense, it doesn't really matter what you do, but how you do it...
like i had to shovel this weekend....
and, normally, when i'd think of hanging out with friends, homework, or whatever to keep my mind off of the shoveling... but
i opened myself up to being mindful and present for what was happening in reality....
feeling the shovel, hearing the birds talk to each other, and the bright sun in my eyes...
just existing...
and that mindfulness of something that i don't think too much about, or usually enjoy very much...was better time spent that not being mindful of something that i know i already love