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Today kinda sucked b/c I had to miss school again for ANOTHER doctors appointment. Now, I didn't suck b/c I had to miss school, but because I had to miss seeing Laura at school! I felt really bad though b/c i accidently called her when she was in physics, but she didn't get in trouble, so I guess it is okay. Yesturday was the Chemistry AP test which was the only one that I truly wanted to pass, and I think if I am luky I'll be able to scrape together a One so I am kinda bummed about that, but I tried my best. Last night I participated in a dialog with the nisd school board, were they made some pretty mean comments toward Jay and magnite schools in general. The one thing that just set me of was when they said in the school boards eyes, and in everyone elses eyes we're Jay/Science Academy or Holmes/BCHS. Basically, I said, "Screw you! I didn't go through an application process, a billion AP and Honors classes, and all those other manditory science academy activities just to be called Jay. ALL the students at SEA want to be recognized as SEA, not Jay anymore. Hell, we are now the second largest magnet school in San Antonio. BCHS, CAHS, and HCHS get their own diplomas, we want our own!" Oh, well! When I got home it was to late to eat, because it was already 9:00 and to try and lose weight I am starting to eat no later than 7:00 so I was starving my ass off. So I went upstairs and called LAURA! We had a really nice dicussion just as me always do. I feel really bad because the only time that I truly get a quality conversation with Laura is over the phone, and I would rather talk to her face to face, I guess that the phone is the next best thing. Last week I had an enigma. This year b/c of everything that I have gone through, I have kinda expected things to be handed to me. And I finally realized that with that mentality I'm hurting alot of people. So lLast week I decided SCREW THEM. From now on I am going full throtle at everything I'm going to do. That list includes school, working out, working at my internship, and perhaps the most important one of all showing Laura each and everyday that I love her more than anyone could understand. She is the one who has suffered the most, and I have sellfishly (sp.) sat back depressed. I finally realized her devotion to me. Looking back at what i did now, I can only thank her for the rest of my life for not forgeting about me, when I forgot about me. LAURA I LOVE YOU! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME! by the way I'm going to sneak that 4 bucks back to you one way or another.