Desolation row
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this entry isnt all about wangsting, but there's enough that Ill put it under here.
I havent been eating very well, and I havent been getting nearly enough sleep.
Maybe this is why I am in a poor mood.
I just feel so...low.
Do other people have it worse? Absolutely. Am I even comparing this to that? Not even close. Im very aware of how much worse I could have it, and it makes me feel like a dick for feeling sad.
I LOVE CONFLICTING EMOTIONS.
I wanted to go out tonight...I never go out anymore. Thats what it feels like anyway. I just sit in front of my computer like a useless blob 9/10 times.
When I look back on my life, am I going to regret all this time I wasted in front of a goddamn computer?
I couldve spent this time drawing or doing homework or reading or any number of other things.
I even have good things going on right now.... s script I wrote is going to be used and turneed into a comic as part of a promotion for a sound equipment company. Im amazed its happening and Im so happy I got picked. My parents are so proud, everyone is so happy for me. I am thrilled.
Ive started working out in order to get in shape so I can stay healthy. Granted Im very VERY sore right now, but Im glad Im doing it and my parents are in shock, haha. In a very good way, though.
Mom got a puppy.
Tomorrow is the mini-comics expo. I am WICKED excited for it.
Yet, Im sitting here teary. WTF, self?
I hate how I get lonely even when other people are home. Pathetic. Ill get over it...I just hate feeling like this. I get frusterated with myself and try to stop the lonely feeling and the sadness. Listening to Bob Dylan has been helping.
Oh my wow I love Bob Dylan.
Makes me slightly more homesick than I already was though... but its worth it cause I love his music.
"You couldve done better but I dont mind
You just kinda wasted my precious time
but dont think twice it's alright"
I heard that tonight and thought of Chase immediately.
I had all this ambition to write~~ and now its disappated.
I hope you're all doing well- I love you.
this entry isnt all about wangsting, but there's enough that Ill put it under here.
I havent been eating very well, and I havent been getting nearly enough sleep.
Maybe this is why I am in a poor mood.
I just feel so...low.
Do other people have it worse? Absolutely. Am I even comparing this to that? Not even close. Im very aware of how much worse I could have it, and it makes me feel like a dick for feeling sad.
I LOVE CONFLICTING EMOTIONS.
I wanted to go out tonight...I never go out anymore. Thats what it feels like anyway. I just sit in front of my computer like a useless blob 9/10 times.
When I look back on my life, am I going to regret all this time I wasted in front of a goddamn computer?
I couldve spent this time drawing or doing homework or reading or any number of other things.
I even have good things going on right now.... s script I wrote is going to be used and turneed into a comic as part of a promotion for a sound equipment company. Im amazed its happening and Im so happy I got picked. My parents are so proud, everyone is so happy for me. I am thrilled.
Ive started working out in order to get in shape so I can stay healthy. Granted Im very VERY sore right now, but Im glad Im doing it and my parents are in shock, haha. In a very good way, though.
Mom got a puppy.
Tomorrow is the mini-comics expo. I am WICKED excited for it.
Yet, Im sitting here teary. WTF, self?
I hate how I get lonely even when other people are home. Pathetic. Ill get over it...I just hate feeling like this. I get frusterated with myself and try to stop the lonely feeling and the sadness. Listening to Bob Dylan has been helping.
Oh my wow I love Bob Dylan.
Makes me slightly more homesick than I already was though... but its worth it cause I love his music.
"You couldve done better but I dont mind
You just kinda wasted my precious time
but dont think twice it's alright"
I heard that tonight and thought of Chase immediately.
I had all this ambition to write~~ and now its disappated.
I hope you're all doing well- I love you.