the long spring
I'm having a heck of a time keeping updates regular on this thing. I had it going for awhile though. I recommend the movie called "Crash" if anyone hasn't seen it yet... it'll touch your heart or move your heart I should say.
I have to work tomorrow in the morning. Working at the Brewery now.. part of the brew crew. All the beer there I can handle... I just want to sleep.
I have the worst hay fever as of late. It seems like it will never go away.. but when it finally does I won't even notice I don't have it anymore. Isnt that weird how that happens.
Still haven't heard from Nick. Its been what.. over two months. I don't want to say he's not my best friend anymore but I'm beginning to wonder. I guess I just don't want to admit it. He doesn't care and if he does he can't even call me in a million years to say hi. This time will be different next time we talk. I'm too fed up with it. I wish I could just talk about my feelings to people but I never can even as much as I care for them I am so afraid or shy, I don't know. Thats my truest weakness. I had a job interview last week and thats what one of the questions was.. "What is your biggest weakness".... of course I couldn't answer.. but between you and me, thats what my weakness is. Showing emotion, I can show emotion when I am not around.. emotion of regret of not showing my emotions to others. Mourning it. Sometimes I think life really does suck.
My body is sore.
Goodnight.
I have to work tomorrow in the morning. Working at the Brewery now.. part of the brew crew. All the beer there I can handle... I just want to sleep.
I have the worst hay fever as of late. It seems like it will never go away.. but when it finally does I won't even notice I don't have it anymore. Isnt that weird how that happens.
Still haven't heard from Nick. Its been what.. over two months. I don't want to say he's not my best friend anymore but I'm beginning to wonder. I guess I just don't want to admit it. He doesn't care and if he does he can't even call me in a million years to say hi. This time will be different next time we talk. I'm too fed up with it. I wish I could just talk about my feelings to people but I never can even as much as I care for them I am so afraid or shy, I don't know. Thats my truest weakness. I had a job interview last week and thats what one of the questions was.. "What is your biggest weakness".... of course I couldn't answer.. but between you and me, thats what my weakness is. Showing emotion, I can show emotion when I am not around.. emotion of regret of not showing my emotions to others. Mourning it. Sometimes I think life really does suck.
My body is sore.
Goodnight.