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I'm a post addict today already haha
I am finding that right now, there are certain people i've had strong desires for in the past week. Yes there is Beck, but I've had moments and thoughts of others that I've had such an urge to explore. And these are people that i've had shared moments with in the past, and yet right now, I am remembering what they felt like, and wanting to explore those urges again.
I had the strongest desire to kiss Amy on saturday night, to dip her and kiss her like in the old b&w movies. She was stunning, hot pink tights and those red pouty lips that have always driven me crazy. But I resisted the urge as she was busy.
I had a really vivid dream of when I used to date Tina the other night. I remembered the way her smile made me giggle(and I don't giggle), and how her giggle alone would turn me on as we layed in bed listening to Fiona Apple and The Sounds. I have this urge to want to explore the lines of her shoulder blades and neck, and kiss that spot under her jaw while curled up watching bad movies like Crossroads haha
I still love Niaomi, but I no longer want that, and I know she doesn't either. That feeling turned ugly, sadly, but I think she's happier now, and I know that I am finding new ways to make myself enjoy life and the people in it.
So these are not rebound thoughts...they are just coming out of the woodwork now
I am finding that right now, there are certain people i've had strong desires for in the past week. Yes there is Beck, but I've had moments and thoughts of others that I've had such an urge to explore. And these are people that i've had shared moments with in the past, and yet right now, I am remembering what they felt like, and wanting to explore those urges again.
I had the strongest desire to kiss Amy on saturday night, to dip her and kiss her like in the old b&w movies. She was stunning, hot pink tights and those red pouty lips that have always driven me crazy. But I resisted the urge as she was busy.
I had a really vivid dream of when I used to date Tina the other night. I remembered the way her smile made me giggle(and I don't giggle), and how her giggle alone would turn me on as we layed in bed listening to Fiona Apple and The Sounds. I have this urge to want to explore the lines of her shoulder blades and neck, and kiss that spot under her jaw while curled up watching bad movies like Crossroads haha
I still love Niaomi, but I no longer want that, and I know she doesn't either. That feeling turned ugly, sadly, but I think she's happier now, and I know that I am finding new ways to make myself enjoy life and the people in it.
So these are not rebound thoughts...they are just coming out of the woodwork now