[2PM; chansung/junho]
it will rain
you don't remember what color they are. it's all the same, all so very grey and you couldn't care less, really. when did this happen? since when, did you become this pathetic? a living corpse of sort, wasting air, wasting oxygen. but the pills are nice. they make you feel so, so peaceful. like birds singing on a summer day, and the chirping. it's so relaxing.
three yellow pills found their way down your throat.
used for acute and chronic pain, it reads on the label. they give the room its colors. the walls are all so bright, there's the ocean blue, the bleeding red splattered all over, while the violet almost suffocates you as it pushes you down. the ceiling's yellow like the sun as you squint. pretty, you think.
but then you're on your knees, breathing.
--
just like the clouds outside his window, chansung's eyes do the same. and it pours and pours and pours to the end. until there's junho in the shadows, and junho when he closes his eyes.
jar of hearts
junho hesitates when chansung suddenly grabs his hand while he’s in the kitchen, searching for food, and drags him upstairs, to the tiny closet-room where they keep all their promo stuff. the room’s the last one down the hall, where it’s dark, and the smell of leather and plastic is funny, tickling his nose as junho brings his hand up, scratching the tip of his nose. itchy, itchy, itchy.
“what is that?” junho asks chansung whose eyes are excited like a puppy’s.
“a jar of hearts. isn’t it cool, junho? they love me,” chansung beams.
“yeah, cool.” junho ignores the loud bang his heart makes.
--
there are strings attached to its back and they’re like long worms, swirling around relentlessly. it’s so red, and bloody, and ugly, and disgusting, junho wants to vomit. hearts aren’t pretty at all. they’re repulsive, junho thinks as he scrunches his nose.
“here, you can have it.” junho’s palm is wet from sweat and blood.
“your heart?” the other asks, raising his brows in surprise.
“yeah,”
“but, but i already got mine…” chansung answers, his healthy heart still beating inside his chest.