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[walkinyoursmile]

more lost than found
on this thing you call equilibrium
so far into what i think I know
that i forget to remember what I am
I close my eyes and look to him for understanding
knowing full well Im not ready
and I breaking not faking but losing my spot
in this book of this chapter i spread my arms out
and I hate it because I can't know
what this is
that Im writing
and why its not my hand writing it