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It occurs to me that I should probably write about something more that just the progression of Shannon and my relationship. Or lack there of. This place is creating a bit of a depression since I haven't met anyone I connect with in my free time to distract from absence of anything entertaining to do. At least last time I was here I had my own car so I could leave post and find things to do. One one side I'm glad I don't because I'm probably saving huge amounts of money that I otherwise would be spending on unnecessary things The downside is that I'm depressed. I can't be with Shannon which makes it much worse. And I have no real days off for myself. Not that I could do anything with the free time besides go to the gym and stare at the walls. Sometimes they bleed...jk. Nail bunny. Wtf happened to Jhonen Vasquez?
I really hate who I've been lately. I'm no fun. I used to be fun..kinda. Wtf happened to that? There's a time for being serious but it's really making me unhappy that it's all the time now. I miss the old days. The bondage pants. The fishnets. Hanging out. Drinking at random places and at all times of the night. If I could go back I would...maybe.
Nothing left but to focus on the now and tomorrow. Make new memories.
I really hate who I've been lately. I'm no fun. I used to be fun..kinda. Wtf happened to that? There's a time for being serious but it's really making me unhappy that it's all the time now. I miss the old days. The bondage pants. The fishnets. Hanging out. Drinking at random places and at all times of the night. If I could go back I would...maybe.
Nothing left but to focus on the now and tomorrow. Make new memories.