A lifetime ago
Three years ago today I broke up with my ex boyfriend Ian. The one who just visited me.
You know, I've just never been able to get over it. I never really wanted to be with anybody more and I never have since. I think maybe we're both still sort of damaged... we've both been single ever since. I just don't have any motivation to NOT be single.
It feels like a LIFETIME ago. I wish it wasn't. I wish things had turned out the way we both wanted them to.
We just fucked everything up so much.
Poor communication, stupid behavior on both sides, general mid-twenties immaturity.
Things would have been so different if we were who we are now, which is no excuse and doesn't change anything.
I still feel lonely and empty and I'd do anything if I could change things, or fix things, or try again.
We were so happy.
I guess I'm still in love with him.
You know, I've just never been able to get over it. I never really wanted to be with anybody more and I never have since. I think maybe we're both still sort of damaged... we've both been single ever since. I just don't have any motivation to NOT be single.
It feels like a LIFETIME ago. I wish it wasn't. I wish things had turned out the way we both wanted them to.
We just fucked everything up so much.
Poor communication, stupid behavior on both sides, general mid-twenties immaturity.
Things would have been so different if we were who we are now, which is no excuse and doesn't change anything.
I still feel lonely and empty and I'd do anything if I could change things, or fix things, or try again.
We were so happy.
I guess I'm still in love with him.