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All right. I wasn't going to address this, but I am now. I have had, just this week, three people try to make me feel guilty for not spending enough time with them. Just having one person do this is irritating enough, but three? For the love of Christ... read this carefully. I don't want anyone to post, asking 'did I do that?' or trying to explain themselves.
I love all of my friends. I value their friendships and take great joy in the pleasure of their company. However, I do not OWE anyone my company. Nor do I OWE anyone this explanation. But here you go: I am a busy, sometimes moody, and sporatic man. It is just a sad fact of life that sometimes, my jobs, my foul disposition, my CONSTANT fatigue, depression, or how about this-- my MUSICAL time requirements-- will demand my attention or solitude. Those of you who know me well know that there are times, when for inexplicable reasons, I need to be alone. It's an annoying involuntary desire, but I have to obey it sometimes. The following is not meant for sympathy or attention, but I have been depressed for nearly six months. This, needless to say, allows for, in my case, a great yearning for solitude. As I have proven myself to be one who will directly address problems or misgivings with my acquaintances, I ask now all parties not to take from my absense any sort of indication of my feelings toward them. If I wish to discontinue spending time with a person, I will TELL him.
I am not perfect. If I commit to a task; an event or a returned phone call, and I don't see said event through, I am at fault, and I apologize. If my attitude gives a bad impression, I apologize. But please... please, for the sake of all things pure and holy, do NOT give me a guilt trip if I can't make oodles of time for you.
I love you all.
Dwain