hanging onto anything I can.
I feel so damn lonely in this apartment. It's so quiet...no voices other than the ones coming from the songs I listen to. No one to sit with at night to share the days events, to laugh with...relax with.
What made me think I could do this when my biggest fear is being alone? I nearly cried myself to sleep last night knowing that when I woke up there would be no one there for me to say "good morning" to. It's something I've done since I could remember and now I took that away from myself.
When my mother comes to visit I feel annoyed but deep down I'm realived. I'm so realived that someone's there...Even if it's just for fifteen minutes or less, I feel better.
And now since the screen is getting a bit blurry and my glasses a bit foggy, I think I'll go.
PS-This effin' sucks.
What made me think I could do this when my biggest fear is being alone? I nearly cried myself to sleep last night knowing that when I woke up there would be no one there for me to say "good morning" to. It's something I've done since I could remember and now I took that away from myself.
When my mother comes to visit I feel annoyed but deep down I'm realived. I'm so realived that someone's there...Even if it's just for fifteen minutes or less, I feel better.
And now since the screen is getting a bit blurry and my glasses a bit foggy, I think I'll go.
PS-This effin' sucks.