Damn what a weekend
Life is good. No life is great. I have had one of the best weekends of my life. I fucked up a couple of times, but I know what I did wrong, and I am not going to do that in the future. I fucked up with molly and if she hasn't posted about it I will leave it private, and just say I appoligized to her and I am going to make sure I don't make those type of mistakes in the future. To all my friends, if I snubed you I'm sorry. I acted a bit of a fool, but you all know I am a hopeless romantic and am apt to act the fool when I fall in love, witch brings me to the other things I did this weekend.
I spent the whole weekend with Silven. Molly took Ray to her moms (thank you Molly) and Nate was at my dad's so we got some time alone ;-}
Then when I took her home I crashed at Mark and Beths for a bit and when I was about to come out here she said that she wanted to come out with me and then her friend called and wanted to meet us so we rode downtown on the rapid and had luch with her friend and we were sitting on the couch we fell asleep. Had a fight with Molly when we got back. (I was wrong and I am sorry) :-(
We (Silven, Ray, Jocy, and I went to her friends house and the kids talked the whole way there and fell asleep in the same bed. We played D and D with her friends and then we went to church at the Oberlin UU in the morning. I made her take a nap on the couch becuse she was so tired and had to work that night but wouldn't get any rest if she went home. I watched Jocy while she played with Ray and I started the grill up for the cookout ( the cook out is where I fucked up with my friends and I am sorry ) :-(
It was a great weekend and though it was kinda frighetening when I realized that I was in love with Silven, but didn't know if she felt that way about me. But it turns out that she does and it is a great feeling. I am going to take this relationship day by day and enjoy the ones I have and not worry about the ones to come, but I think that they will keep comming. I was looking at her while we sat on the couch and she had her eyes closed. I could see her face with the lines of age around her eyes, the marks of many smiles around her lips, and a halo of silver framing her face. I still felt great love and tought to myself "I'll still be here loveing you" I couldn't say it out loud and I am realy emberased that so many people are going to read this. Sean says I "glow" every time I talk to her. This relationship is actualy comfortable. No pretending to be something I'm not. I am having fun.
BTW to my friends I'll hang with ya'all more I promise.
I spent the whole weekend with Silven. Molly took Ray to her moms (thank you Molly) and Nate was at my dad's so we got some time alone ;-}
Then when I took her home I crashed at Mark and Beths for a bit and when I was about to come out here she said that she wanted to come out with me and then her friend called and wanted to meet us so we rode downtown on the rapid and had luch with her friend and we were sitting on the couch we fell asleep. Had a fight with Molly when we got back. (I was wrong and I am sorry) :-(
We (Silven, Ray, Jocy, and I went to her friends house and the kids talked the whole way there and fell asleep in the same bed. We played D and D with her friends and then we went to church at the Oberlin UU in the morning. I made her take a nap on the couch becuse she was so tired and had to work that night but wouldn't get any rest if she went home. I watched Jocy while she played with Ray and I started the grill up for the cookout ( the cook out is where I fucked up with my friends and I am sorry ) :-(
It was a great weekend and though it was kinda frighetening when I realized that I was in love with Silven, but didn't know if she felt that way about me. But it turns out that she does and it is a great feeling. I am going to take this relationship day by day and enjoy the ones I have and not worry about the ones to come, but I think that they will keep comming. I was looking at her while we sat on the couch and she had her eyes closed. I could see her face with the lines of age around her eyes, the marks of many smiles around her lips, and a halo of silver framing her face. I still felt great love and tought to myself "I'll still be here loveing you" I couldn't say it out loud and I am realy emberased that so many people are going to read this. Sean says I "glow" every time I talk to her. This relationship is actualy comfortable. No pretending to be something I'm not. I am having fun.
BTW to my friends I'll hang with ya'all more I promise.