LJ Idol Season 8 Week 16 - 'Cause We Love Our Love in Different Sizes

[walkertxkitty]

o/` "If he's extra large well I'm in charge
I can work this thing on top
If he's XXL well what the hell
Every penny don't fit the slot

The anorexic chicks, the model 6
They don't hold no weight with me
Well 8 or 9, well that's just fine
But I like to hold something I can see o/`

-- Perfect 10 performed by The Beautiful South

"Kindness is the

Comments

[tayryn]

"Try it my way for a bit, Kitty, and see what happens. I don't care about your size, I just want you to be as healthy as possible and happy about yourself."

for this alone... i love Dee!!

I'm re-inventing myself to be healthy at the size I am, no matter what that size may be.

good for you!! THAT is the best damn attitude to have!!

i've NEVER been tiny. i don't ever want to be tiny. i am six foot with a large frame... tiny would just look sick on me.

yes, i am doing Weight Watchers. yes, it is working for me. but it's not a diet. it's teaching me to eat healthier (or at least it's trying! *G*), to try for a healthier lifestyle.

so, i do understand the weight battle. i've been fighting it most of life as well...

I'm re-inventing myself to be healthy at the size I am, no matter what that size may be.

again... THIS!

just because a person is big, does not mean the person isn't healthy! i know you have other health problems... but i also know they aren't simply because of your weight... and i hate it when people assume as much. tis not right.

good luck to you on the re-invention. i have no doubt at all that you will acheive this.

*HUGS*

[walkertxkitty]

He's been very good to me. He understands what happened, perhaps better than I do since the job he does involves thinking so much about human motivation and the damage early patterns can cause, but he does get angry and frustrated. Not always helpful.

So far, so good. I'm sleeping less and my hair is thicker than it used to be. I still can't digest the vegetables unless they're cooked to mush and then pureed in a food processor or blender but sometimes I can't resist. Cabbage has become a big favorite right now; the stuff we buy at the farmer's market is so sweet and succulent it doesn't even taste like cabbage!

I should also consider it progress that three of my doctors no longer ask for weight when I come in and do not depend on that to give me treatment. That's up from one (my primary physician who is just awesome).

I'm still not satisfied with my looks or my exercise, but we're working on it. We just now found out that Dee CAN swim with the feeding tube in; now we need to see if the facility is truly handi-accessible. I can walk a few feet to a ladder and I can climb in and out of a pool, but I cannot walk from the entrance to the dressing room to the poolside.