Worst Saturday ever

[walkedintoawall]

Worked three times as long as I slept, might get fired. Got home, hung around, hung out with Matt, a cop ruined my plans for the night, I was pissed. So Loren didn't get her soda, John couldn't hang out, everyone at Grad Bash, I'm wondering if I'll get a real date with this girl, I hope so. And to my roller blader, your depressing to be around when your like this, you told me you wanted to do it, but you really just wanted to keep me with you, so I wouldn't leave you. I would LOVE to be your friend, but not like this. I can't get an apartment with you, not like this, you lie to your parents faces, you lied in my face, and i think you lie to yourself these lies. I listen to you saying you would never drink again, the next day your buying. You say you buy for the random comforting shot that day, that night your trashed,you say when this is over you won't smoke as much pot, how can i believe you. How the fuck does this help your fucking future, it doesn't, use your god damn potential. I want to talk to you and help you, but you dont care for yourself. you do look like your dying, and it makes me want to kill something, eat something, some damn food. I had to tell you this over gay ass LJ because you would cut me off face to face, stop lying to yourself, count how many lies you have told, you can't trust yourself.I want to help you through this shit, but you have to give some effort and realize your can't just say your gonna do this, you have no show. God damnit, straighten up, if not, I do think you could die, and if you live, your life will be fucked, get it together, and if you really want help doing this, then call me, whenever. But if you think you can work around probabation and smoke after it and all this shit, don't call me, because when I hang out with you like this, it makes me want to beat the shit out of you and everyone there. You sound so pathetic. So lame. So weak. It makes me want to never see you again, and i remember a time when I would do anything to just hang out for an hour with you. I got in so much trouble to spend time with you, and know I will lie to get away from you. I hate that, I hate this shit. I can't say anything else. But call me when you've read this, I need to talk to you, call as soon as possible.

And to all of you, watch your ass, when your 18 the law changes, in a bad way. Lets not get arrested, ok. Fuck school, its over to me, I'm just gonna push through. Someone call me. I want to cuddle.