we were infinite

[walkawayslowly]

I said there would be introspection, but instead on this birthday, I learned of the death of a friend. She was the wife of the choir director, and directed the youth choir. When I started with the church three years ago, she and Amy invited me to sing with the kids. She proceeded to make me absolutely fall in love with being part of a choir, and a year and a half later, when I was fired from the church, she and her husband issued a "formal invitation" to become part of the adult choir. She had diabetes, and had a kidney transplant two years ago, and for the last six months had been stricken with a really horrible lethargy that no doctor could diagnose or treat, though her death was unrelated to these issues. She'd finally made it out of her house on a yearly trip to California with her husband and granddaughter, and had an aneurysm in her sleep the first night on the trip.

So that was my birthday, although I did still have fun at dinner with my friends. I got three separate pieces of cheesecake at the Cheesecake Factory, because choosing is for babies and hey, it's my birthday. Amy and I cried a bit over our friend, but we laughed more than we cried, and decided Marilee would have liked it that way.

It's my last year in my twenties, and I thought my life would be different than it is, but I can't say that I'm unhappy in it. I have really good friends that love me, I have an awesome family, the cutest nephew in the world, and a good job that I enjoy going to. It's as much as I think I will ever want to be able to say, that I am happy, that I love and am loved.